Sunday, December 31, 2006

Auld lang syne....

2006 was an interesting year for me. All in all, I'm happy to say that it was a relatively quiet year. I'm fortunate to have been able to overcome the knocks that were sent my way. Not to say that there weren't losses, or that it wasn't an emotional year; but in the grand scheme of things - life was calm. I'm hoping that 2007 is just as kind to me.

Isn't it said that to strengthen your weaknesses you must embrace them first?
I'm hoping to do that in the upcoming year.

So this is my toast to 2006:

"If you stop growing, if you stop believing, if you stop striving - then you have stopped living. Here's to a staying alive for a magical new year."

Author Charles Lamb once said of New Year's:

"New Year's Day is every man's birthday."

May 2007 be a healthy and prosperous year to all...and here's to no acquaintance being forgotten.

Saturday, December 30, 2006

It's like a fresh start, once a year!

Should auld acquaintance be forgot? No, I don't think so.

Each and every person we've crossed paths with in one way or another is for a reason. Sometimes we know why; sometimes we don't see it right away because maybe there was a lesson to be learned from it. But whether we look back upon these people and see immediately the reason for their involvement in our lives is irrelevant; without them we'd each be a different person than who we are at this very moment. And for that reason alone - no acquaintance should ever be forgotten.

What exactly is a New Year's resolution? Is it a list of things that we wish to achieve? Things we should've already achieved but haven't taken the time to do? For me, the resolutions I make are a little of both. I'm a goal oriented person, so if I put in writing what I'd like to accomplish, chances are - I will do it.

So here, without further adieu - are my New Year's Resolutions for 2007:

1. Read 1 book a month. I think I'm actually going to start a Book of the Month club to keep myself on track with that. I know, I'm a geek. I finished my last book I mentioned "The Secret Life of Bees", and have bought a new book to get my resolution going: "The Memory Keeper's Daughter". I'm open to any and all recommendations, so please - feel free to share any good books that are worth reading. I'm not picky, just like good reading material. No Harlequin love novels for this girl!

2. Enroll in school and finish my degree and maybe.... consider taking graduate courses.

3. Run a 10k. Of course this will require some training, so running more 5ks is the pre-requisite for this resolution.

4. Go to the doctors and get a complete physical. I tell everyone else to do this, it's time I follow my own advice and do it. I have an aversion to doctors that I've developed since having kids.... time for me to grow up and lose that. I'm proactive in mostly every other area of my life; why be reactive when it comes to my health?

5. Go to NYC for the weekend to see a show and do some shopping with my friends. I've never been there, outside of going for 3 hours for an audition. Imagine? So close - and yet never been to the Big Apple. I am definitely going this year.

I don't think that New Year's is the only time of year that we can reflect upon things which we can improve about ourselves - so this is an ever changing, evolving, living/breathing list. And I'm sure I have other things that I should be adding to this list -but they're escaping me at the moment. Clearly, my coffee has yet to kick in.

Have you thought about your resolutions yet?

Thursday, December 28, 2006

A walking contradiction....

This is often how I describe myself. A walking contradiction. Smack dab in the middle of "type A" and "type B" - which in of itself is just weird. Anal retentive about somethings....and so very laid back and lax about others. So, in taking this fun little blogthing, I thought it was ironic that the first sentence used that terminology too.

I haven't been watching the news lately because it's too joyous of a season to be brought down with all the negativity the nightly news brings. But yesterday I did a little catching up. Former President Gerald Ford passed away as I'm sure everyone knows. You know you're getting old when the first President you can clearly remember being in office other news, Saddam Hussein's sentence will be upheld and executed (literally) within the next 30 days. That is great news for the Iraqi people, and the new government. I don't have compassion for Saddam, but I do feel pity for him. Power is a funny thing.....if you're a good person, you can do magical things with it. If you're not, well - we all know how that story goes. He had a defining moment in his life where he could've chosen to be a different kind of leader, and he opted not to go that route. He could've been loved, revered, respected....a father, a grandfather, and a beloved leader. And instead, he's going to be executed as a heinous dictator. An abuser. A creator of monsters. A rat smoked out of a hole.

The New Year is fast approaching and I'm compiling my list of resolutions. I keep finding new ones to add; clearly I can use some self improvement. But then again, couldn't we all?

Your Element Is Water

A bit of a contradiction, you can seem both lighthearted and serious.
That's because you're good at going with the flow - but you also are deep.

Highly intuitive, you tune in to people's emotions and moods easily.
You are able to tap into deep emotional connections and connect with others.

You prefer a smooth, harmonious life - but you can navigate your way around waves.
You have a knack for getting people to get along and making life a little more peaceful.

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Random thoughts for the day after Christmas...

1. I'm beat. It was a lot of fun yesterday - but alot of work. I'm glad the biggest portion is behind me. Now all that's left to take the tree and decorations down on New Years Day. Ayup. With a hangover, that ought to be a lot of fun...!

2. I can't believe my lawn is green. I have new grass growing in! Clearly, this global warming thing is working because my lawn looks better now than it did during most of the summer! Who'da thunk it?

3. I have this funky laryngitis thing going on. I feel great....I'm not sick or anything. But definitely have that "might have smoked too much last night" sound. Except for the fact of that I don't smoke. I just sound smoky.... I'll take it.

4. Those stupid little plastic ties that all kids toys seemed to be harnessed in their little boxes with just drive me insane. What ever happened to the days of opening a box and just taking the toy out? My hands are killing me from all those silly little "flooglebinder" things. I know, flooglebinder isn't the right word...but do you remember what movie that comes from? I do!

5. I'm going back to work tomorrow. I didn't take time off because well - I don't really have anything to do. I mean, there are lots of things I'd like to do, but no one to do them with because everyone else is working or already has plans.Not that I couldn't do things with my kids but they already have playdate plans. So I'm hoping it's quiet enough to go in, do my thing and then leave early and do something else. I'm sure I can find something to occupy my time...

6. No Jason Varitek under my tree. Sigh..... Maybe next year.

Sunday, December 24, 2006

Have yourself a merry little Christmas....

However you spend the next few days, I hope you're surrounded with people you feel comfort with.

May your mug of hot cocoa never be empty....and your stomach always full!
Here's to another year of looking forward to being nice....with maybe just a few naughty moments!

Saturday, December 23, 2006

All I want for Christmas is.....(fill in the blank)

So, it looks nothing at all like Christmas around here. It's warm, balmy....and rainy. That's okay - it doesn't damper the spirit any, at least not for me.

What does damper the spirit is that just when I thought the shopping season had ended for me - I found out it hasn't. I found out this morning that we have another guest coming for dinner and it just wouldn't be right to open gifts and not have anything for them. I'll go today to get for one more. I'm still in wrapping hell, but I'm hoping to see the end of that tunnel by tonight. I think that's the only part of Christmas that I don't love....the wrapping. But I think that's because I do it all myself. Who am I kidding? I do everything myself. Always. From the shopping, to the the cooking to the cleaning. And not just at's always. It's my life. It's a solo job. And I enjoy doing it, so I suppose I shouldn't complain, but I guess a little help somewhere along the line would be nice!!! (Okay, I guess I'm bitching.)

Wait, didn't I say my spirit wasn't dampered? Well, okay - maybe I'm not as cheery today as I've been. But I'm sure after a good cup of coffee - another round of wrapping - and of course, a pick me up of shopping for my favorite things (cleaning products), I'll be feeling happier overall.

Thursday, December 21, 2006

I'm actually going to be ahead of the game!

I cant' believe Christmas is so close! I love that it's on a Monday this year - it's going to allow me an extra day to get ready which means I won't be a crazy busy person on Christmas Eve Day. I'll actually be all prepared for my dinner the night previous. I'll prep everything on Saturday so that I'll only have to finish the cooking on Christmas Day. You have no idea how much of a relief that is. Now, I'll only have to worry about the gifts that I may have forgotten to buy!

As I've mentioned before, I love entertaining - and the cooking is my favorite part of it all. Christmas is the one holiday that I like to go all out and get a little more formal and creative with my menu. So without further adieu, as I always promise to reveal my menus - the following is what will be served on Christmas Day at the "I'm just a girl" house:

Appetizers: Cheese, Crackers, Smoked Salmon, and other condiments
1st course: Shrimp Cocktail, Stuffed Scallops, Scallops wrapped in bacon and Filet Mignon bits wrapped in bacon
2d course: Home made Broccoli, Cheese and Mushroom Soup, Antispasto
3rd course: Baked Ziti & Meatballs/Sausages
Main Course: Spiral Ham, Roast Beef, Roasted Potatoes, Sausage stuffed peppers, Sauteed String Beans Almondine
Dessert: Yeah, I don't do dessert on Christmas. Everyone brings a dessert that day. I call it quits at dessert.

Your Holiday Personality is Social

For you, the holidays are all about spending time with people you love - and even those you kind of like.
Host your own party - maybe even a few. Get people together for baking cookies, watching movies, and playing holiday charades.

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

She took the words right out of my mouth....

Dear Santa,

Do you remember me?
I sat upon your knee.
I wrote to you with childhood fantasies.
Well, I'm all grown up now,
But I still need help somehow.
I'm not a child, but my heart still can dream.
So, here's my lifelong wish --My grown-up Christmas list.

Not for myself, but for a world in need.
No more lives torn apart,
And wars would never start,
And time would heal all hearts.
Everyone would have a friend,
And right would always win,
And love would never end...
This is my grown-up Christmas list.

As children we believed
The grandest sight to see
Was something lovely wrapped beneath the tree.
Well heaven surely knows
That packages and bows
Can never heal a hurting human soul.

No more lives torn apart,
And wars would never start,
And time would heal all hearts.
Everyone would have a friend,
And right would always win,
And love would never end...
This is my grown-up Christmas list.

What is this illusion called the innocence of youth?
Maybe only in our blind belief can we ever find the truth!
There'd be...No more lives torn apart,
And wars would never start,
And time would heal all hearts.
Everyone would have a friend,
And right would always win,
And love would never end...
This is my grown-up Christmas list.

PS: Jason Varitek professing his undying love for me is a little something I might like too. Thanks!

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Have a cup of cheer!

I found this Christmas "meme" on Martie's blog the other day - and after my cautious mood yesterday, thought that today was a good day to bring back the holiday spirit!
So if you want it - take it - and tell me if you posted, so that I can see what you wrote.

1. Egg Nog or Hot Chocolate? Hot Chocolate flavored Egg Nog. :)
2. Does Santa wrap presents or just sit them under the tree? Santa is all about presentation... but the elves do all the wrapping. Santa can't do it all!
3. Colored lights on tree/house or white? White lights
4. Do you hang mistletoe? No. Who kisses anymore??
5. When do you put your decorations up? Thanksgiving weekend.... it's so busy as the holiday approaches, it's nice to enjoy the tree and lights when it's quiet.

6. What is your favorite holiday dish? I love it all. Ham is the classic centerpiece, but Christmas is when I get really creative and fun with cooking.
7. Favorite Holiday memory? Hearing my Dad explain how Santa's handwriting really wasn't anything like his! ;) And seeing my kids expressions the first time they saw the tree light up and really "got it".

8. When and how did you learn the truth about Santa? The truth is that I still believe. "Miracle on 34th Street" is my favorite Christmas movie. And isn't there a little bit of Santa in all of us?
9. Do you open a gift on Christmas Eve? No. I love waiting for Christmas morning. I'm pretty patient.
10. How do you decorate your Christmas Tree? Colored bulbs first...then personal ornaments, then "fou fou" ornaments, then the ribbon. (My tree is pre-lit)
11. Snow! Love it or Dread it? Love it. I love going snowmobiling, and clearly you can't do that without snow!
12. Can you ice skate? Yes, I can skate pretty well - even do a basic spin. I love ice skating.
13. Do you remember your favorite gift? I've had so many wonderful gifts over the years...not one is more special than the other. My most special gifts didn't come at Christmas, they were in the summer. And those - were my kids.
14. What's the most important thing? Hmmm....About Christmas? To me, the spirit of the season is more important than the holiday.
15. What is your favorite Holiday Dessert? My Auntie Saralee's "Green Slime Pie", which we are having in her memory this year!!

16. What is your favorite holiday tradition? Decorating the tree which I've always done by myself - now, it's a tradition for me and the kids. Hot cocoa, home made ice cream, Christmas music and lots of laughter. Funny, neither my previous relationship or my husband were/are ever into decorating the tree. Is that a "guy" thing? I couldn't imagine not being a part of that.
17. What tops your tree? A teddy bear angel my Mom made when I was young. When I moved out at 181/2, I told her that was the one thing I wanted her to give to me, which she did. It's been on my tree every year since.
18. Which do you prefer giving or Receiving? Getting gifts is always nice....but the giving of the gifts is by far my favorite.

19. What is your favorite Christmas Song? Traditional: Little Drummer Boy, Oh Holy Night, Greensleeves/What Child is This. Contemporary: Christmas in Sarajevo (TransSiberian Orchestra), Peace on Earth/Little Drummer Boy (David Bowie/Bing Crosby), Believe (Josh Groban)
20. Candy canes, Yuck or Yum? How can you not love candy canes?!

Monday, December 18, 2006

A sting in the air....

Life has been relatively quiet with the usual suspects as of late.

It's funny though...I have a sneaking suspicion that Christmas Eve is going to be eventful. I can just feel it.
An unspoken tension is there. It's ever so subtle. And yet I feel it so sharply.

Christmas Eve is one of the few times that things like this can happen because it's one of the few nights that we're all enclosed in the same space. And of course, one of the parties involved always seems to choose that night to air their discontent. I can't help but be suspicious each year as that night approaches.
But hopefully, my gut will be unusually incorrect.

"...Well everybody got an opinion now, don't they
But it aint no thang to me
it really don't make any difference now to me
if you don't like what you see
I pay no mind to the negative kind
cause it's just no way to be
I don't stop to please someone else you see
Gonna live my life for me
Gonna keep on doing my thing
Cause whether they love or they're hatin' on me
I'll still be the same girl I used to be..."

Sunday, December 17, 2006

How lovely are your branches.....

So this is the tree this's funny how pictures just don't do it any justice.

If anything, it makes me notice the flaws in the placing of the ornaments. Not that there's a real science to it or anything, but I do try to balance the colors some. Okay, I do have to suppress my Monica-ish tendencies in this area. If I didn't have kids...this would definitely be a science. But with children, you sort of have to mellow out on the whole "Type A" thing. I pretty much let the kids pick out the placements of the ornaments that they can reach. Because truly, it's their tree. They just get a little "guidance" from Mom when decorating. We have dozens of ornaments that we've collected over the years, and each year we pick out a few new ones so the tree is different each year. And this gives the kids variety on what they want the tree to look like. They love picking out the bulbs and they both seem to love birds on the tree this season. They picked a few out this year, so we've got lots of pretty feathered birds. Fortunately, my kids and I have have similar taste! Boy, would they be dissapointed if we didn't! hahahaa.

It's too bad you can't really see the tree up just looks so pretty in person.

Friday, December 15, 2006

"When I'm tired and feeling cold -- I hide in my music, forget the day....."

I've been fortunate to have good friends in my lifetime. But from the time I was 14 on, I was "best friends" with my friend Paul. He's probably the closest thing to a brother I've ever had. We'd talk on the phone for hours. We would drive around for hours, listening to music endlessly. Some of it would be these eclectic little artists that no one else knew much about; sometimes it would be bands like Boston, or the Cars....and sometimes it would be his own material. I have a really good ear for music, and sometimes he'd come up with something and bounce it off me to see what I thought. See, he's a musician - and was in a very popular local band at the time we met - and so music was something that we had in common. We actually met through a mutual friend - one of my girlfriends was in love with him. Obsessively. And she used to drag me along with her to go visit him at his work which was close to the mall. Plus, we'd see him at shows because of course we'd go to them. But as a result of being her friend and always being there - and not being obsessed with him - he and I hit it off. It turned out that we had tons in common with interests, and of course - there was the music. We were almost inseperable for many, many years. I'd give him advice about his girlfriends and career....He was there for me with my own heartbreaks in my relationships. I've always loved him and trusted him as I guess most sisters must love and trust their brother.

Our relationship has changed over the years. It started when he was engaged to a girl that thankfully he never married. She wasn't secure enough to accept me as his friend -and didn't want him to stay in touch with me. He didn't make the decision to do that though - I made it for him. I stopped calling, didn't return his calls - and eventually our friendship drifted. As his friend, the best thing I could do was to not pose a problem for him and who would have been his wife. Two years later I missed him terribly and called to see how he was. Funny how life is....they had broken up for good a few weeks earlier. They never married....and we could be friends again.

While we never got back to the routine of talking on the phone or hanging out again nearly to the extent that we used to - we've never lost touch since that point. He was at my wedding....and I hope to someday be at his. We call each other at least once a month and we try like crazy to make plans to have lunch together but life sometimes gets in the way. He's still in the music industry, and while he's playing in another band at the moment that's building momentum locally - he produced his own cd about 18 months ago that is excellent. I was so proud of him when I played it in my cd player. Check out his site: and if you listen to track 12 - well that has extra special meaning to me. Its an instrumental - and is a musical reminiscense of our days when nothing else mattered but how good the music was.....

Thursday, December 14, 2006

I hate to say "I told you so".....

But I knew that we'd sign DMat. It would've been poor business sense for all of them to not make a deal. You don't pay $52 million to broker a deal, to not make it work, you know what I mean? And for lose a client for his own selfish needs would be counterproductive. And DMat wants into the Big Boys League. To have let this fall apart would've been foolish on all their parts. Just my humble opinion. What I am surprised about is the length of time...6 years is an amazingly lucrative deal for the Sox. I thought for sure it was going to be a 3+1 at $11M. So to see 6 at roughly $8.5M is just mindblowing to me.

What I have issues with, is this whole "Dice K" thing. Dice K??? Who thinks of these things?!??! First off, it's awkward to say....second - I think it's just stupid. DMat is quick, easy and to the point. Sounds good, it's strong and you know who it is. I have to stop and think who the heck is Dice K? Ugh. Clearly someone should've cleared this nickname with me, because I'm here to say - I refuse to use it.

It's a good day in Red Sox certainly is.

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Emotions in motion....

I never cry. I think the last time I wept was when my daughter was born, and even then it wasn't a sobbing - just a little breaking in my voice and a few tears. I'm a very controlled person, and while I can be very animated and excited about things in a good way - when it comes to tears, whether they're happiness or sadness - I'm exceptionally guarded. I know, it's an issue I have of feeling vulnerable. I have lots of issues in that area, being guarded and trusting those around me enough so that I can feel vulnerable and not be so hardened at all times. It's one of my "broken" traits....and I'm working on it.

Well, today was a day that I almost couldn't contain myself. My son had his Christmas concert at school, and I have never in my life ever felt anything like I felt when I saw him walk into the audiotorium for the first time and get on stage. The pride I felt made me feel like my heart was going to burst! And for the first time in a long eyes filled with tears that I couldn't contain. I laughed and said "How silly, I'm all choked up!". And while I didn't cry, that little boy and seeing him wave moved me to tears faster than anyone who's ever tried to make me cry.

He sang his heart out!! And my daughter S, who adores her brother - yelled out in the audience in that split second before they started singing "I miss my T...Hi T....". Everyone started cracking up, it was really funny.

When I have moments like these, I often think of parents who aren't there for their kids, or who don't revel and enjoy their children as they should. And I feel so sad for them. They just don't know what they're missing. There is nothing like seeing your child grow and re-living your life through them - and feeling the unbelievable sense of pride that comes with seeing that little life blossom.

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

All is calm.....all is bright.....

Growing up, I lived in an apartment in a house. We moved a few times when I was younger, but we weren't able at that time to afford our own home. It was far more difficult to buy a house back then, then it is now and my Dad was self employed - which back then made it nearly impossible to buy anything. Who am I kidding - it's become far easier to buy a house in the last 10 years than it ever was before. But I digress... So, as a kid we weren't able to put lights on our house during Christmas. Or maybe we could've - but it would've been quite a hassle for my parents and where it wasn't their house...more of a bother than what they would've wanted to deal with. So instead like most families, we used to drive around and look at all the houses that were lit up and decorated. I loved that - one of my favorite parts of the holiday season.

This year, while not my first year owning a home by any stretch - is the first year that I have lights on my own house! There's a company that does our landscaping - that also does Christmas lights now. It's very inexpensive...they set it all up, put it on a timer - and take it down at the end of the season. And what's even better is that when you order next year they give you a discount so that everything is less expensive each year you use them, which allows you to build on if you so choose to. Pretty nice!

I take my kids out one or two nights a week after dinner to look at the lights. I get them into their cozy clothes...fill a cup with hot cocoa and go to different neighborhoods and towns to go look at the lights. And while they love turning the corner to our street and seeing our house, it's not the same for them. I'm the one who is really excited when I see my own house aglow.

Your Christmas is Most Like:

A Charlie Brown Christmas

Each year, you really get into the spirit of Christmas.
Which is much more important to you than nifty presents.

Monday, December 11, 2006

It's beginning to look alot!!

Last night before I went to bed I watched Red Sox Weekly, and they were interviewing (sigh.....) Jason Varitek. They asked him a variety of questions including if he's going to learn Japanese so that he can communicate well with DMat. What I found so very interesting was that when he answered, there was no "Well, we don't know what's happening yet...." or "We'll have to wait and see if we sign him", or anything to that effect. He was very comfortable with answering all of the questions regarding Matsuzaka and spoke as if there was no doubt he was going to be in the rotation next year. I personally feel that we will be signing him, despite all the negativity that's been floating around. I just find it hard to believe that the Sox would pay $50 some odd million to talk to the guy and then only offer $8 million a year. I think they're stuck on the amount of years and free agency - but hey, what do I know? Only time will tell, but Jason surely came across as if it was a no brainer. I've been avoiding watching tapes of DMat, just incase things do fall apart. But I saw a bit of him last night and he is NASTY. It would be very exciting if he is as good as he appears - and can handle the culture change and the environment of being in the Boston market. Which leads me to....

Manny is still a Red Sox!!! I'm so glad nothing has been coming through with regards to trade talks. There is no one that could come close to replacing him in the lineup - and I love, love, love watching him. "Manny being Manny" is part of his charm. I'll take him and his drama any day. He's well worth it.

Saturday, December 09, 2006

'Tis the season to be jolly...

Last night was our Holiday potluck...the gathering of the "Aunties"..... and as always, it was a great time. It's been far too long since we've all been able to get together - and even this time we were missing two. But we were thinking of them anyway. I don't think I've eaten that much dessert in a long, long time - and I think I'm paying for it today! Or could it be all that I drank....? We did our ornament swap..... and clearly, some of us have great minds that think alike, as the three of us ended up with the same ornaments, or variations of a theme anyway!

And one of the girls made us all a gift. Something that we'll all treasure....and something that I think we need to bring with us in 4 or 5 years to a holiday gathering and compare what we've done with them. She made us each a scrapbook with a calendar on one side marking everyone's birthdays, and scrap book pages for adding photos on the other side. She also made pages of some of our favorite thoughts and recognizable well as a page of wishes that we all had. She had emailed us a few weeks back and asked for some of our favorite memories of the times we've spent together.... as well as quotes and three wishes. She put so much time and thought and effort into this, and it was really touching. We went around the room reading which quotes and phrases belonged to us, and it was fun to relive it all again. I love, love, love gifts like this and it's something that I will always treasure.
Most of the girls in the group have been friends since junior high....some since high school. I came along a little later than that, and I'm so very thankful that our paths crossed when they did. I couldn't imagine life without them.

Thursday, December 07, 2006

So close and yet so far.....

I've been growing my hair for the past year for Locks of Love and I'm trying so hard to be patient. It's definitely long enough to do now -- you donate 10" of hair. But if I did it today (which I have to be honest, I almost did!) my hair would be right above shoulder length. My stylist thinks that by February or March, it will be long enough to cut and have it be at a length that I will feel comfortable with. I took about 1/4 inch off today to freshen it up a bit, but it's at that point where I almost can't stand it anymore. If I can just hang on for a few more months, I'll be good for the donation, and I'll feel really good that I was able to do it - and maybe even still like my hair afterwards. Trust me, there's nothing worse than getting a hair cut and hating it. It's like being in a Halloween costume that you can't get out of. I spent a lifetime of bad hair cuts when I was a teenager. Always changing my hair color, my style.....finally in my early 20's I settled into a more traditional appearance. So I know what it's like to hate my hair, and I don't miss that feeling at all. To be selfless, yet selfish at the same time....this is the game I'm playing at the moment.

There is another organization - I'm not sure of the name of it - but they only need 8" instead of 10. If I can find out who they are, I may donate to them instead and cut this mane down a bit sooner rather than later. One would think that with the internet as it is, it should be a no brainer to find them. And yet, I'm struggling.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

Ain't nothin' but a groove thang.....

As anyone who knows me is a huge part of my life.
Well clearly - someone else got the hint about that as well!

I don't know how they got my information but for the past 4 months, I've been doing monthly surveys for Boston radio stations. They play me snippets of songs currently in the rotation and have me rate them and help them determine how "over played" they are or aren't. How awesome is that?!?! Then, they play me new songs that are coming and ask me to rate them as well.

So last night was my monthly survey for December. Here are some of the songs that I said I either disliked - or are dead, tired, overplayed and should be put to rest. I'm sure there are more - but these are the ones that are lingering with me:

"Hips don't lie" - Shakira : Ugh, if I hear this song one more time, I think I'm going to throw up
"My Love" - Justin Timberlake : This CD is god awful. "Sexy Back" was good but the rest of it makes me cringe. Whatever was he thinking?!?!
"Wind it Up" - Gwen Stefani: Listen, that stupid "Bananas" song irritated me. This one makes me want to send her hate mail. Whatever happened to the Ska/Punk Gwen? I loved her!!
"Call Me When You're Sober" - Evanescence: Okay. I loved, loved, loved their first CD. I thought they were the second coming of old Queensryche. But I can't stand it when a song is beat into the ground. And this one my beaten and buried.
"Waiting on the World to Change" - John Mayer: I don't care for him anyway. But this is a song that I'm waiting for the world to throw away.
"Crazy" - Gnarls Barkley: One phrase to capture this song for me -- "nails across a chalkboard".
"Suddenly I see" & "The Cherry Tree" KT Tunstall: Could they play these songs ANY more frequently???? Enough already.
"Maneater" - Nelly Furtado: How about someone eats that girl and we never hear from her again?

So while my vote in politics may not have nearly the impact as I wish it is a forum where my vote seems to really matter!

Now if only I could find someone to interview me for naming OPI nail polishes......

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

I'm too sexy for my shirt.....

So, Friday night we had a holiday party at one of my girlfriend's houses. She just recently started her own catering business and is really doing very well with it, and also recently renovated her house; so she's been wanting to have a get together there with as many of her friends as possible, so she opted to have a holiday party. It was a great time, the house looked gorgeous - the food was excellent. And of course the company was wonderful.....and interesting. She has a "friend" whom we'd never met before. She's a neighbor of hers, and they get together from time to time, which is always a nice way to make new friends. So anyway, she comes to the party and she's an attractive girl, has a very pretty face.... and is wearing no top. Well, practically no top. As one of the girls pointed out - it was more like two doilies stitched together and slapped on than a shirt. Completely open with her bra showing through. Whew - I guess in retrospect I'm glad she wore a bra! And I know this is going to come out catty....and I don't mean it that way. Okay, maybe a little meow here.....She really is in no shape to be wearing a top like this. Which, no one might have noticed had she chosen to not be practically topless. And to top it off (no pun intended!)....she's complaining of how cold she is. Hmmmmm. I'm thinking: "Wear a shirt, and you won't be cold". But again, she was friendly and nice - so really does it matter that she didn't choose to wear a shirt to a social event where she'd never met anyone before?

Seems she's a sex toy party host. I left before that little tidbit was revealed, and I guess once the alcohol kicked in she was in rare form - though I wasn't there to witness it. But must've been interesting because here it is two days later, and we're still chit chatting about it. Anyway... clearly it takes all types to make the world go 'round....and if anyone's in the market for an adult toy party - I may know someone I can get you in touch with!

So this is a shot of some of us from close to the end of the night....I haven't heard from my paparazzi source, so I can't confirm this -- but I'm thinking the reason why it's cropped the way it is might have something to do with the shirt - or the "lack there of"....

Monday, December 04, 2006

Monday Mish-Mash....

1. "What would you do for a Klondike Bar?" Um, nothing. Ugh, I can't get that stupid jingle out of my head!

2. I'm off Thursday and Friday of this week.... and I'm so very much looking forward to it. Especially Friday, where I get to go Christmas shopping! I love shopping during work days, the stores are quiet and I get so much more accomplished! And, I've been really busy at work lately - I could use the time off.

3. I'm hoping to squeeze another 5k in before the snow really falls around here and stays. There was one at work today, but I didn't get the details on it until Friday and I already had things lined up for this morning so I missed out. I really enjoy running. Funny how I started doing it because I sorely needed a hobby - and I really enjoy it. Some days I might only run 3/4 of a mile - some days I'll run 2. But no matter what, it always clears my head and makes me feel great. It's definitely addictive.....

4. The "gathering of the girls" is this coming Friday night. I'm so looking forward to it. And it's our "Holiday Soiree", hahaha. So lots of laughs, lots of memories to be made....definitely lots of pictures! We're trying to nail down a few different charities we want to donate to. I donate year round to a variety of organizations, but I think I'm going to donate my portion to the battered women and children's shelter. I've always wanted to donate to one and it's quite difficult to get the locations of them, because obviously - they don't publicize that information. But one of the girl's husbands is a police officer and so she was able to provide some info on that type of charity. So many women and children escape their own personal hells at the holidays, leaving all their toys and belongings behind - or not having a holiday at all. It's just something I've always wanted to do for them.

5. Speaking of the girls, some of us got together this past Saturday night at a holiday party. Great time as always....lots of fun, and look for a picture coming soon. The paparazzi was there (naturally, as we are celebrities! hahahaa) so some good group shots should be circulating via email at some point today.

6. Nothing like weather in New rained, snowed - and now the sun is shining. Gotta love it!

7. "Made in Heaven" that's a movie I haven't seen in quite some time. I used to love it. I think I need to rent it and watch it's on my mind.

8. Dunkin Donuts wheat bagels....had one today. Gotta tell you - they're not that bad. I eat my bagels like they were donuts....cold, plain and whole. Sort of like a donut --- but not.

9. Tomorrow is most definitely going to be a pony tail day....I can already feel it.

10. I've recently rediscovered why I don't watch the NHL anymore. I hate the rules. They've changed the game so much that it's no longer enjoyable for me. What's up with the stupid shootouts in lieu of having a tie?? Hate it. I'm sorry - but I gave up my Bruin's seasons tickets in '96 and now I remember why. Back then, it was just because they were lousy. Now, they're still lousy - the management is still all screwed up - and ugh, I don't like the "kinder, gentler" hockey with their new rules.

What's on your mind?

Sunday, December 03, 2006

A girl's best friend....

On Friday, my dog Brandy started this odd coughing. It almost was like a gagging or choking - but the more I watched her do it, the more I thought it might be a collapsed windpipe or something to that effect. It wasn't getting any better, and so my vet (who comes to my house, love her!) came over yesterday to see her.

The long and the short of it is....Brandy has a Grade 5 (1 being least, 6 being worst) heart murmur on both sides of her heart. Her heart beat, which I listened to - doesn't sound like a heart beat, but more of a "whoosh whoosh". If you've ever heard a baby's heartbeat while inutero, you'd recognize the sound. It is muffled, and doesn't sound like a true heart beat, but yet has the rhythm of one. This cough, is her body's way of creating more oxygen for her. And the vet could tell what it was going to be prior to even listening to her heart, because her breath was an indicator of something not right (outside of needing a bad brushing!). This can not be reversed...and while we may be able to keep it at bay for a short time with medicine, she will eventually die from this - either by suffocation, organ failure or heart attack.

We're having an echocardiogram done Friday to see the severity and to confirm that it is as bad as it seems - or hopefully, to maybe see if it's not as bad as it seems. If it is though...and that is something I have to think about - I'm more inclined to put her down gracefully than to have my children potentially either come home to find her gone, or even worse - see it happen.

She's only 10, rather young for a Jack Russell. And it came on so very quickly. The vet said since she didn't have this murmur last year, she more than likely may already have an infection that triggered the cough. Just like in people, when you have a severe murmur you need to be on antibiotics because you are prone to infections. I hadn't been expecting this, I sort of thought it was going to be something rather benign, like she ate something she wasn't supposed to and it was lodged or something like that.

My head and my own heart still hurts from thinking about it.

Friday, December 01, 2006

Weird, wacky and wild....

Chesney Girl has tagged me to list 6 weird facts about myself. I'm not going to tag anyone in particular, so if you feel like playing - take it - and let me know if you did it so I can see how odd you are as well!

Previously, I did this little tasker all on my own because of a children's show that inspired me... So here for your amusement are 6 more "Ridiculous Quirks and Habits of Rebecca"....

1. I have a penchant for sharpie marker pens. For some reason, I think they make my handwriting look prettier.

2. A few days before I come down with a cold, my bottom lip gets really full; so much so, that I tend to chew at it a bit because it's in the way! And then - it seems even fuller. Weird.

3. I love banana splits - dried banana chips, banana milkshakes - anything with bananas. But peel me a banana and hand it to me? No thank you.

4. I can't help gawking like a schoolgirl when a group of motorcycles ride by....that is the sound of summer, my friends.

5. I have to organize all my photographs in chronological order. It will absolutely bother me if I don't - and I'll rearrange the whole damn album if I have to so that it works.

6. I'm an absolute road rage driver when I'm alone. I love nothing more than to bust 'em on someone who is a jerk on the road. Say someone thinks I'm not driving fast enough and they ride up the rear? hahhaha, I'll slow down to 25 miles an hour....and then when they try to pass me - I speed up so they can't cut over. And then I'll smile and wave - maybe even blow them a kiss. I know - it's wrong. But I can't help it - I'm from Boston!

Thursday, November 30, 2006

Love the girl who holds the world in a paper cup.....

On my way to work this morning, I heard one of my favorite songs from when I was small. It brought me right back to my living room when I was about 5 or 6, to any given Sunday morning when my Dad would play his stack of 45's. I could almost see the orange panel curtains that used to hang in the living room....the forest green sofa with the afghan on top of it, and the entertainment center of sorts my dad built with 2x4s in the corner of our living room, that was kitty cornered from wall to wall, adjacent to the French doors to the den. I could hear my father whistling and making the little sounds he used to make while he was singing along to any of the songs he really enjoyed when they came on. I think I could even smell what our house used to smell like when I was small. Nothing specific that I can put my finger on and describe in a way that anyone else would was just home.

There were many songs that my Dad would play on Sundays. And I liked them all...but this one, I've always loved. It reminds me the most of home and being small. For some reason, this song just stayed with me throughout my whole life. Maybe it's the concept of the song in general that I liked without my even being old enough to realize it....or maybe it's just the tune itself. But the title of my post is a line that has clung in the corner of mind ever since I can remember.

Since I heard it this morning, I was able to rewind it over and over again on my way to work.
And I saved it as a favorite, so now I'll always get an alert when it's on.

It will be nice to go back to that time in my life again, even if just for a few minutes.

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

I grow a little each day.....

Not too long ago, I wrote a post about a person in my office who had gotten under my skin. I had alluded to the fact that I thought maybe he was lonely....I had never noticed a wedding band and he's really such an eccentric type - I thought maybe he was more of a loner.

Boy was I wrong. And pleasantly so.....

This morning, I ran into him in the break room - and he was in a rather upbeat mood, which I could tell because when I said hello to him, he sounded happy to say hello back - which isn't always the case. So, I seized the opportunity and asked him if he was enjoying his holiday season thus far. Which he said he was...and he laughed. That was when I noticed the wedding I asked him if he hosted, or was a guest this Thanksgiving. He laughed and said he was very happy to have been a guest this year at his son's house. So I said "Oh how nice...! Is he your only son?" to which he happily and proudly told me he has 8 children and 13 grandchildren. Holy Moly! It was such a nice thing to see how he almost lit up telling me....and it was something that I never would've guessed in a million years. So I asked how they work the holidays with so many it difficult with children vying for their parent's do they split it all up? And he seemed almost eager to share the concept of managing such a large family with me.

This is why I hated even writing that post when I did. Maybe, people aren't always the same type of person in work, as they may be outside of work. It's important to not take people and what they say and do in work too personally, and take life in stride. And while he didn't necessarily do anything to me that was anything mean, maybe I should've taken a step back and not gotten so irritated. In retrospect, maybe work is just so very important to him now that his 8 children are all grown and out of the house.

Everyone has a "story", and we should always be sensitive to that.
Lesson learned for me today.

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Scents and Secrets.....

Today is the first day that it's really smelled like snow outside.

It feels like snow...but it also has that snow smell. As I've mentioned previously, there's no real way to describe it to someone who's never smelled it, outside of maybe describing it as how an ice cold and crisp apple tastes when you first bite into it. That's probably the best description I could give for someone who has never lived in a winter weather area.

Funny, today I have nothing in particular to say.

Imagine? Me, without some semblence of a rant?

Well, I'm in a great mood....which I usually am anyway...but, I'm having a great hair day today, and I love what I'm wearing - which always puts a girl in an especially good mood. Sometimes, depending on how your hair comes out, or how comfortable you feel in the outfit you're wearing - that in of itself can set the tone for the whole day. I mean, sure - no one else will know that you're feeling "off"....unless, of course you divulge the information. It's sort of like when you wear a little sexy "something something" underneath your clothes - not for anyone in particular - just for yourself, to feel fun and special. It's like your own little secret. (Which of course, now I get the whole "Victoria's Secret" name. The secret is that no one has to know you're wearing the fun little flirty stuff, other than yourself! Isn't that fun?!?)

So with my cold hands, and my warm heart I'm here to say that this is my story for today....and I'm sticking to it!

Sunday, November 26, 2006

City mouse....Country Mouse....

I spent a few days up in North Country over this holiday. No, not Canada....but close enough!

We went to Santa's Village and then to the Rock's Estate Christmas Tree farm in Bethlehem, NH. The kids absolutely loved it! I'd never been to Santa's Village either, and I was pretty impressed. But, the farm was my very favorite part. The craft fair with all sorts of homemade foods, the burning fire pit for roasting marshmellows.....the hay ride and the sweet, sweet smell of Christmas trees filling the air. That is my kind of day.

What I loved most though....was where we were. And the ride to get there. While some might argue that there isn't much to look at, for me - that was what I liked about it. Driving on a one lane road between two mountains, with not a house or building in clear sight - just the shadows of one way off in the hills. While I've been to NH, Maine and VT many times - I haven't been someplace quite this rural. It was so quiet....and peaceful. It's hard to believe that we all share the same sky sometimes, because it is just so clear and bright the further away from the city that you go. I don't think I've seen the night quite so black and so crisp against the twinkling of the stars in all of my life. Or maybe it's just that I appreciate it more now.....

I know there are advantages to growing up in the city, but I've always felt I should've been a country girl. To me, everything just is cleaner and fresh; the food tastes better... a night's sleep is deeper. To have wildlife and nature surround you and enjoy life's quiet and simple things. You can always go to the city; but to come home to the country, just seems special to me. Sure, maybe it all wears off or is just not noticeable when you grow up or live amongst it at all, just as you become jaded living in the city.

And while the only downside was the fact that the closest Dunkin Donuts was 10 miles away or so....(imagine the horror?!?) it still made me wistful to be able to live someplace else.

I guess it's true that the grass always greener on the other side.

Saturday, November 25, 2006

Ha! No surprise here.......

You Are 26% Open

You are open at times, but generally you don't let many people into your inner world.
It's possible that you have a friend or two that knows you well.
But to most people, you are a total mystery.

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

It's all about giving thanks....

To some, Thanksgiving is a day of football and food....
To me, it's a day to reflect upon the past year.....and watch football and eat food!

I have much to be thankful for, and thought I'd share some of my most important reasons.

I'm thankful for my recent recognition and understanding of my own spirtuality. As I've mentioned many times, I'm not a religious person per se - I'm more of a spiritual type. And it's only been over the past year that I've come to fully understand and clarify what I do and don't believe, and how I choose to honor God. I've had some situations over the past year that have tested my beliefs - and I dealt with them as best as I could; I feel comfortable with my acceptance of their circumstances. For this I am thankful.

I'm thankful for my health. This year I've had people close to me struggle with their own health - some winning their battles.....others losing. It teaches you to take life's day to day troubles into stride, and makes you realize how important it is to take care of yourself. While we can't always control conditions that might afflict us, we certainly can take care of ourselves before finding out that there is something wrong. This actually ties into one of my New Year's resolutions for this coming year I think. Making it a point to go to the doctor on a far more regular basis is something I need to do.

I am thankful for my new found wisdom. There's a difference between being smart, and being wise. I think I've finally learned to recognize the line between the two. It's funny....I'm always questioning life, my own thoughts and everyone else's - that's just part of who I am. But I've learned over the past year it seems, to just sort of take my own advice (which isn't always half bad) and choose my battles more carefully. Stop trying to change the world, stop trying to save everyone - I don't have to think for everyone all the time. Just let it go......
It's a wise choice and you know what, I'm thankful I've made it. Now, if only I can stick to it.....

And lastly, I'm so very thankful for the collage of memories made daily, that I'm blessed to call "my life".
I'm merely the is my family, and my friends who are the colors that paint the portrait of who I am.

Have a lovely Thanksgiving......

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

What a girl wants.....

Okay, so here's a list of life's "must have's" for pampering and spoiling yourself. Or at least a list of my particular needs....

While I'm not "high maintenance", I do have a few items that I just can't live without.
Well, I could.....but, why would I want to?

Bliss Vanilla Bergamot Body Buff - I love this stuff. Not only does it exfoliate your skin amazingly - it smells great - and it leaves your skin with an amazingly soft feeling. You put it on before you get into the shower, and use your bar soap to rub it in.... It blends into your soap as well, so you don't have to use it that often - you can just use your regular soap on one side to exfoliate - leaving the other side smooth for when you don't want to. A little goes a long way, and you will feel soooooo good afterwards. Trust me.

Bath & Body Work Sun Ripened Raspberry Body Lotion: I've been using this for years...and I'm out of it at the moment now that I think about it. Actually, I've been out of it for some time..... I've been using other scents in the meantime but nothing comes close to this one. It smells delicious and goes so nicely with my perfume. It's funny, once you really like something - nothing can replace it.

Lip Fusion: How many times have I raved about this? But you can't use the colors....they're too - bright. Listen, I'm a simple girl. The plain clear is perfect. It gives such a nice matte yet shiny finish. Must have. Can't live without. Good thing is - despite the fact I use it constantly, it seems to last quite a long time. Which is good because it's not cheap.

4. Yankee Candle's
Pumpkin Pie & Cranberry Chutney: I am completely addicted to candles. And when it comes to the smells, I'm all about the home scents and comfort....which of course, with me - is about food. Now clearly, we can't have Pot Roast scented candles, or Grilled Steak candles (though I'm thinking, might not be such a bad idea!?!?) so a girl has to find baking type food scents to make her feel warm and fuzzy. These two hit the spot for me. And while I have plenty that I like.....these two, I love.

Orbit Gum - Not that I can't chew just any mint gum, because I can. But Orbit has got some really great tasting mint gum! And it's just the right consistency....not too soft, not too stiff....not too sugary. I know chewing gum is not very lady like. But listen - I must have some flaws, don't I?

Monday, November 20, 2006

Have a Holly, Jolly.....Thanksgiving?!?

Call me crazy, but isn't it a bit too early for the radio to be playing Christmas carols?

I always have the classical music station playing in my kid's rooms, but on Saturday nights I switch it to another channel because they play religious music in the morning and it sounds kind of scary to a small kid sometimes. So, I happened to change it to Oldies 103. (Which, for the record should not be playing songs from the 70s and 80s - those are not oldies! But I digress...)

As I was making my son's bed yesterday, the voice of Brenda Lee singing "Rocking Around the Christmas Tree" rang out from the radio and it stopped me in my tracks. Christmas music? Before Thanksgiving?!?!? That's unheard of outside of retail stores! And I then I heard that they've been playing this music since the day after Halloween. Halloween!?!?!?

I thought there was some "unwritten rule" that the Christmas music playing on the radio started on Thanksgiving Day? Isn't that when all the radio stations kick into holiday gear and we hear "Jingle Bells" in every variety known to man until New Year's Day? Don't get me wrong....I love Christmas music. Love, love, love it. But in Autumn.....?

The thing is - there's no buildup for Christmas anymore. Thanksgiving used to be the official send in for the holiday season. At the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade, Santa ushers in the beginning of the Christmas season. If it's going to be pushed back to Halloween - well, we'll all be bored of Christmas before it even gets here! And what fun will that be? It's that magic and surprise of childhood - the innocence of it all - that is being taken away by making the season be something other than what it's always been, which is the end of the year and the introduction of winter.

Take Old Jack Frost, Santa Claus, and the first elusive snowfall of the season....add in Christmas carols with a cup of hot cocoa and a roaring fire - and that my a holiday season.

Saturday, November 18, 2006

Why I love Saturdays.....

Saturdays are "Mommy & Me" days. I always try to do something fun and interesting with the kids. Today was definitely fun. I took them to the Model Train & Toy show. My son has loved trains since he was a baby - and of course, my daughter being the second - would rather play with her brother's trains than most of her own toys. So I knew this was going to be a good call. It's amazing all of the different things that are available for the avid collector. And all so life like!

This particular event drew a rather interesting crowd, to say the least. Some very....eccentric type people there. Let's just say that although I always make the kids hold my hands - I made sure that they didn't even think about straying from my side.

And what's really nice about this particular location where it was at - was that the food was great! They featured home made foods as well as the average pizza, chicken fingers and hot dogs. Some of my chickie's favorites were there -- home made clam chowder, chili, Shepherds Pie, Chop Suey, Baked Macaroni and Cheese. So I didn't mind so much them eating out because it wasn't just junk.

Admission was free for them - and they loved it. It doesn't have to cost a million dollars to keep the kids happy, which is always a great thing for me!

Friday, November 17, 2006

Vanity Plates

I've always thought it was pretty cool to have license plates that were personalized. I never got one myself, but I love seeing some of the really unique ones that are out there.

Today, I had two experiences with two different vanity plates this morning. One pissed me off....the other - made me smile.

I was driving in the far right lane to get onto route 128 this morning, and this guy in his SUV almost crashes into me, practically sideswiping me. Where did he think I was going to go? I would've crashed into the guardrail. So, of course I lean on my horn and call him a few choice words with my mouth that's like a trucker. What does he do? He's not even going onto 128 (which at least I could've cut him slack on, and just thought he was a jerk trying to get ahead of me), he's going straight towards the rotary. So he leaned all the way over into my lane and stayed there for no good reason. What was his license plate: LYRIX.

I was on base, driving towards my office and stop at a red light. I see a car with a family in it - and the license plate said "HEREWEGO"..... Cute, huh?

Some of my favorites are:

What more do you need to say? On a 1991 Red Convertible Corvette with IL Plates
Bee keeper
On a VW Rabbit
On a Podiatrist's new Caddy
God is Good, on a pastor's car in Virginia. Virginia frowned upon putting religious messages on vanity license plates, but it ruled this one ok
I see inside you, a radiologist's plate
Live Before You Die
Paid to aruge, an attorney's ego tag in New York
Risky Business, on a '94 Red Porsche 968
Smoked you!
On an Obstetrician's Mercedes
On an Ophthalmologist's car - it's the 20/20 line on the eye chart.
Same to you buddy! (seen in heavy traffic in Virginia)

Thursday, November 16, 2006

Hey baby....what's your sign?

I don't usually pay much attention to the "horror-scopes" posted on my Google customized home page, but for some reason, today's caught my eye.

Today's Horoscope for Virgo (August 23 - September 22)

"The urge to procrastinate is nearly irresistible, but fight it! Hesitation only leads to more doubts. Take action, even if it's only small or symbolic. That'll put your heart's desires on the fast track to success."

Clearly, whomever writes horoscopes for Virgo - doesn't know me very well. Procrastination....Me?!?

Virgo's Snack Choices

"You won't find health-conscious Virgo tearing through a huge plate of nachos. This sign prefers a snack that is both wholesome and filling. Soy nuts are just the ticket for a hungry Virgoan. Choose the kind with no artificial flavoring and preservatives, please. This sign treats their body like a temple, even when it comes to snacks!"

Okay, first of all - load up the nachos, please with extra guacamole, chili and sour cream! Soy nut?!?! Are you crazy?!?! Peanuts is more like it! While I do enjoy working out..... and enjoy eating properly - please, I prefer to indulge and be decadent!

This is why I never understand why people live and die by their horoscopes in the daily paper. I know people who can't function without checking their horoscope daily. While sometimes, the generalization about the personality type that goes with the sign can be spot on....this day to day generalization of what is or isnt' happening in one's life is just that. A generalized prediction based upon a generic generalization about a potential personality type. It's not real life, and it's funny how some people are just riveted to reading what their horoscope says and then melding their life into having it fit.

It must be some obsession we have about knowing more about who we are. Don't get me wrong, I love it at times too. I love reading about the Virgo personality and seeing how I do or don't match up....who's my "best" most compatible love sign.....who is the "worst".

I guess for me, it boils down to the aspect of not wanting to know what lies ahead of me that day. I'd rather embrace the day wide eyed, ready for surprises and not thinking about how I should be thinking or feeling. I don't have to have it all micromanaged and planned in advance.

Which, might I add.....clearly isn't very Virgo of me!

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

Seeing with the mind's eye...

My parents taught me to read at an exceptionally early age. Escaping into books of poetry or novels were such an integral part of my life for so many years....

I used to read at every opportunity - in bed, in the bath, in the bathroom - on the name it, I was reading. I've always found it so magical to read a book and have such a vivid image of who the characters are. I can hear their voices, their dialects rolling off of their tongues; I can smell the scents in the air and hear the background noises surrounding them. To become involved in the stories of characters you've never met and yet feel so initmately connected with -- is such a gratifying experience for me.

I stopped reading on a regular basis about 10 years ago now. Mostly due to a lack of time; and what's so funny is that ten years ago, I had far more time than I do today. I've noticed the toll that the lack of reading has taken on me. Outside of the mere enjoyment of getting lost in another life, I've noticed that my vocabulary has decreased markedly. I'm also not quite as able to capture what I want to say quite as quickly....You just don't realize how sharp reading keeps your mind, especially when you're doing it for the relaxation or entertainment value.

Now, while I'm wandering through a bookstore - which is still one of my favorite things to do - I feel overwhelmed. There are so many books that I'd like to many authors I've never heard of and not sure about taking a chance on.....and so many genres to choose from. I did buy a book though...only one, surprisingly. I had a few in my hand, and they ranged in topics from lighthearted comedies to autobiographies; dark stories of the human soul.... to heart warming stories of the human spirit. I chose the latter of the group.
"The Secret Life of Bees" by Sue Monk Kidd.

Over this past year, I've kept to most of my New Year's Resolutions.
I'm thinking that I'm going to add to my list this year "making the time to read 1 book a month".

Tuesday, November 14, 2006


It's been some time since I've had a cold. I mean a real, good ol' fashioned-stuffed-up-nose-needing-chicken-soup cold. And it came this weekend.

I had bronchitis last November....and pneumonia this past April - but those aren't colds. They have no impact on your sinus tract.

I almost forgot what it felt like to have my head so stuffed up that it hurts to think.....
I almost forgot what it's like to feel like you're suffocating when you eat because you can't breathe out of your nose.
Aaaah. The joy that only Vicks Vapor Rub can bring....those are the little things you miss when you are healthy.

As a matter of fact, I'm still so congested today, I'm almost excited that I can't smell the disgusting mildew smell that my office space seems to hold within the ventilation system. Because normally, I have a very sensitive nose that picks up on that stench long before anyone else chimes in with "yeah, I do smell something weird..."

That in of itself almost makes the fact that I have to apply pressure to my front teeth in an upwards motion to alleviate the tension in my sinuses, bearable - possibly even enjoyable.

If I only had the Demi Moore voice to go along with it too....

Eh, well - you can't have everything!

Friday, November 10, 2006

Who let the dogs out....?

So my morning got off to an interesting start.
I have a dog. A Jack Russell Terrier named Brandy. She's very protective of our house, but will get along with other dogs - so long as she can have access to them.

One of my girlfriends who's also a neighbor - has a gorgeous German Shepherd named Jack. Who's not good with other dogs. So Brandy and Jack, well - never the two shall meet. Until this morning....

I don't usually have Brandy on a leash. I live on a cul de sac, and I'm normally only letting her out after Jack has been walked. I usually can tell when he's been by because I've either seen him - or heard Brandy going ballistic as he walks by the house.

Occasionally, Brandy and Jack have skirted one another mostly because either I have her out with me in my arms as I talk to my girlfriend while she walks Jack; or Brandy may be out with my without my realizing Jack is coming out of his driveway. And what does Brandy do? She always runs right towards him. Which isn't a good thing because then everyone gets nervous not sure what's going to happen.

Today, they met face to face. It's wasn't very pretty....but it wasn't very ugly either. Jack is really a good dog, and truly I don't know that he would've hurt her anyway. He seemed a little perplexed when Brandy started to make all sorts of noises. But I didn't know Jack was at the end of the street when I let Brandy come out with me while I took out the trash. I had seen Jack walk by earlier, but didn't look to my right as I was walking across the yard. All of a sudden....I hear "No...!" and see Brandy running towards me, with Jack - looking very much like a lion running after her. She goes to hide behind me, but doesn't get there quick enough and Jack goes to put his mouth on her to hold her down - when I grabbed between the two of them - put my hand between them, grabbed Jack's scruff and told him to "drop it". Which, he promptly did. And he was perfectly content to just stand there as I picked Brandy up.

She was fine...he barely touched her. And he was great - really such a good dog. It's not Jack's fault if he has a high prey drive; and it's not Brandy's fault that she's curious to check him out. It is however my fault, to have had her off leash.

Dogs have their own psychology and their own society. It's our responsibility to understand them and know their limitations, both with people - and with other dogs.

I think Brandy's a little broken hearted though. I think she's got a little puppy love crush on ol' Jack.

Thursday, November 09, 2006

Breaking up is hard to do.....

Relationships are difficult enough to begin with....but to have one publicized on television, surely has got to be just the means to the end of one, wouldn't you think?

Britney Spears is now divorcing Kevin Federline. Shocking.After that "Chaotic" television series about their relationship, how could they not have seen that one coming. I mean, did she sit at home and watch it and think "We are soooo cool!"? Clearly, neither one of them have a brain between them; and we knew this - obviously they haven't figured that out yet. But to see it in liquid crystal was just.....disturbing.

Jessica and Nick. One of the first "reality" couples. And what's so sad about Jessica is that this show not only made her the identity that she is today (she's not even a person any more it seems, just an image) - it also showed how poorly she treated her husband. And how not so bright she was. And how poorly she treated her husband. (Can I stress that enough?) What I wouldn't have given to have Nick Lachey dote on me the way he doted on her!!! And I would've appreciated it!!!! He loved her....and she was so.....pampered spoiled Siamese Cat-ish. Clearly, he needs a real woman who can show him what it's like to be loved.....but I digress.

Dave Navarro & Carmen Electra. First of all, while I'm quite addicted to reading his blog and find him really smart and articulate - he has some bizarre habits, clearly. And Carmen, well.....What was she thinking? Not the marriage - but the televised aspect of it all?!?! I sort of felt bad that they couldn't work it out. She hasn't had much luck in love it seems. But then again.... Dennis Rodman?!?! There's something to be said about maybe not making the best choices.

Danny & Gretchen Bonaduce: While I love this show, I'm so disturbed by it. What ever made them think that by televising their already destructive and broken marriage - it might fix it?? It's over.... and there's no amount of publicity or residuals that are going to fix that. He's tormented....he torments her....she's tormented....the kids are being tormented. Just end it and move on. Let's just see Danny being destructive, and let his poor wife off the hook.

Reality shows aren't real.... I guess that's the point of it all. And clearly, celebrities haven't quite gotten that point yet either.

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

Feeling hot, hot,!

Who knew I was this good?!?!??!

A little fun for a rainy and otherwise blah Wednesday!

Your Seduction Style:
The Charmer

You're a master at intimate conversation and verbal enticement.

You seduce with words, by getting people to open up to you.

By establishing this deep connection quickly, people feel under your power.

And then you've got them exactly where you want them!

What Is Your Seduction Style?

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

"Tenderness and kindness are not signs of weakness and despair, but manifestations of strength and resolution."

Last night I re-watched one of my favorite movies. It's funny, I can watch this movie over and over again - and yet it never comes to mind when I'm answering the random question of "favorite movies".

"Shallow Hal" is probably one of the funniest movies...and touching at the same time. Not a huge Jack Black fan, I've gotta admit. But the sensitivity this movie shows about beauty being "in the eyes of the beholder" is wonderful. And with Jack Black as the lead character in this, it's rather ironic because he's not exactly the type of guy that one would think to cast in a role to be so judgemental. Same with his buddy there, played hysterically by "George Costanza" Jason Alexander. These guys are not quite in the same "beautiful" category themselves - on a purely superficial scale, of course.

I can find something beautiful about everyone....I know that sounds corny, but I mean it. Everyone is someone's child, and everyone has a parent who (hopefully) loves them and wishes the world for them. To not even give someone a chance to be your friend based solely on their outward appearance is just so wrong. Kids often don't know better, or buckle to pressure and sometimes aren't always nice to everyone. But as an adult, I think there is no excuse for it.

There's more to being a beautiful person than how we appear on the outside.

I know alot of really "beautiful" people who are just ugly and mean on the inside. And I really believe that those who can't be nice to other people and factor in a person's appearance as being an excuse to be mean to them, clearly have issues within themselves that go pretty deep.

People sometimes think it's a sign of strength to "prey" upon those whom they either perceive as being "less" than they are, or those they feel intimidated by. If they only realized that there's strength in kindness, they'd probably go alot further in life.

Monday, November 06, 2006

Just another Manic Monday....

1. How tall are you barefoot? 5'1
2. Have you ever flown first-class? Yes, I used to pretty often actually. I used to work for Delta, part time. I worked on base FT, and doing reservations on nights/weekends. As an employee they prefer you travel First as opposed to Coach whenever possible. It was lovely....especially travelling internationally or to LA.
3. One of your favorite books when you were a child? Charlotte’s Web.
4. A good restaurant in your city: Venetian Moon. AMAZING martinis.
5. What is your favorite small appliance? My Braun hand mixer.
6. One person that never fails to make you laugh? My girlfriend Kim.
7. What’s your favorite Christmas song? Little Drummer Boy
8. What was the first music that you ever bought? I think it was the Gloria Gaynor 45, "I will survive". How sad is that....
9. What was one of your favorite games as a child? Loved playing Clue.
10. What is the one thing that you cook that always receives compliments? Chicken cordon bleu seems to make all happy.
11. When you were twelve years old, what did you want to be when you grew up? A veterinarian. Until I realized I'd have to put animals "to sleep".
12. Your favorite Soup of the Day? Chili
13. What in your life are you most grateful for? My children
14. Have you ever met someone famous? Yes. Various authors, actors, musicians and athletes. Growing up in and around Boston, it's not difficult to do! And I met a bunch in LA too.
15. Date Of Birth? September 17th
16. Top 3 thoughts at this exact moment:
I love the cd I'm listening to at the moment.
My left foot fell asleep.... ouch!!!
Why haven't I received any responses to some email I sent?!?

17. Three people you’re thinking about right now:
Hmmm. I'm not really thinking about anyone in that a bad thing?
18. Name three drinks you regularly drink:
Water; Coffee; Wine
19. From what news source do you receive the bulk of your news? The newspaper and talk radio
20. Current hair? Long, blondish....straightish. Jennifer Aniston-ish. At least that's my goal.
21. Current worry? Don't want to discuss it.
22. Current hate? I can't stand people who don't have anything good to say about anyone for no reason. Really. I'm so sick of it....
23. Do you consider yourself well organized? I am about some things....most things. I'd say I'm well organized, but not exceptionally well organized. How's that?
24. Do you believe in an afterlife? Yes. Absolutely.
25. Where do you think you will be in 10 years? Good question. I don't know.... One never knows what the future holds, right?
26. Do you burn or tan? I burn...then tan.
27. Who was the last blogger you hung out with? Hmm. One of my coworkers blogs, so I'd have to say Lloyd. Otherwise it would be Karla!!
28. Are you more optimistic or pessimistic about the future? Optomistic. I can overcome anything.
29. Last time you had an alcoholic drink? Saturday night! Champagne. Love, love, love champagne....
30. What songs do you sing in the shower? I stopped singing in the shower years ago. I do alot of my thinking in there now.....
31. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a kid? Fire
32. What’s in your pockets right now? I'm wearing a straight pockets for me!
33. Last thing that made you laugh? Have I laughed yet today??? Hmmm. Probably watching my nephew play with my kids yesterday!
34. Best bed sheets you had as a child? I loved my Star Wars sheets
35. Worst injury you’ve ever had? Hmmm. Broken ankle when I was 24. Almost a compound fracture, in a cast to my thigh - in a cast from Nov through March, overall.
36. Favorite song? Oooh. Way too many to name just one!!!
37. How many TVs do you own? Five.
38. Last person that made you blush? A friend of mine
39. Best compliment received? Hmmm. Good question. I don't retain compliments well it seems. I guess being told that I was thought of as kind and well grounded.
40. What song is in your head? "London Bridge" by Fergie. Can't shake it this morning for some reason. "Drinks start pouring and my speech starts slurring....and everyone starts looking real good..."
41. What is your favorite book? I don't think I have one at the moment....
42. Last meal you cooked? Homemade pizza
43. What were you doing at 12 midnight last night? Complaining about the football game and really hating the Colts.
44. What would you like to accomplish with the remaining years of your life? So much....never stop growing, learning or experiencing life. Learn not to be so hard on myself.... I'm sometimes so busy worrying about the perception of what I think people want from me, that I don't often say what I really am feeling. Which is surprising because I normally am just straightforward, but depending on the topic - I'll hold back and stifle my true feelings.