Friday, October 31, 2008

Eat, drink...and be scary!!

Or not so in my obvious result below:

You Should Be a Fairy for Halloween

According to our quiz, you'd make an ideal fairy.

Your runner up costume: Showgirl

You Are a Vampire

You are charming, sensual, and even a bit manipulative.

You can't help but get people to do what you want.

You have sharp senses and a strong predatory instinct.

You go after what you want, without mercy.

While you have the heart of a killer, many people are drawn to you.

You are elegant, timeless, and mysterious. You are the ultimate fantasy object.

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Thursday's Thoughts....

1. Update on the knee.... I went to the orthopedic specialist today who took Xrays and examined my cute little patella -- and he is of the feeling that I've got a torn lateral meniscus. Sigh. Fortunately, while I wasn't able to get in for an MRI today, I was able to get in for one tomorrow. I've never had one before, and I don't get claustrophobic or anything -- so how bad can it be, right? Hopefully I'll have better insight as to whether or not I'll need to have that fun little orthoscopic surgery as he mentioned today. Anyone out there in the blogosphere have that kind of a surgery recently? Do tell and share your experiences -- this girl would love to hear it.

2. I never seem to get what I want with my hair. It's so frustrating. I don't like my hair cut at all. Not even a little. She talked me out of cutting it as short as I wanted, and added a bunch of layers instead. Ah yes, now I remember why I haven't layered my hair in like ten years -- I don't like it layered at all. As a matter of fact, I hate it layered. And the highlights aren't as light as I wanted them to be. She added a toner that makes me feel as if my hair is darker than it was when I first started. I know it will fade and lighten - but seriously, $185 later - I should love what I've got, right? Plus, my bangs which look fabulous I have to say -- are wider than I want them to be. I don't like wide bangs, and yet....there I have them. (Insert a big ol' F-bomb HERE.)

3. So can't wait to go to NYC! And I am not letting this knee issue get in the way. Not even a little bit. Sure I'm going to be sore but I am not going to let that stop me from sightseeing! After the play (speaking of Jeremy Piven - the last episode of "Entourage" was fantastic wasn't it! But I digress...) we made dinner reservations at
Phillipes where I hear the duck is "to die for". While our dinner reservations are relatively late, I'm really looking forward to being there a bit early and going to the bar. Their Lychee Martini looks fabulous! Seriously, how often do you get to be decadent? Speaking of which -- the hotel we're staying at this time looks beautiful, has an outstanding reputation and best of all -- it was a sweet deal via Hotwire!

Does it get much better than that???

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Birds of a feather flock together....

Or psychos, as the case may be.

Scott Peterson, that complete waste of human life and taxpayers' dollars -- is reaching out to Casey Anthony.
Whatever could he possibly be saying?

"Hey, hat's off to you -- you did a far better job of disposing your daughter than I did with my wife! Hey, you're kind of cute...Too bad we can't hook up, but since we're both "otherwise occupied", I guess it's just letters eh?"

Interestingly enough, Casey and Laci (I cringe having to put his innocent wife's name in the same sentence as her' make matters worse, their names together sound like they're an X rated version of the Doublemint Twins!) look relatively similar enough to pique the convicted killer's interest.

I'd post a photo to show you, but truly - I can't bear the thought of contributing to the publicity that either of these clearly self indulgent narcissistic animals long for.

Everything about Caylee just completely saddens me to no end. And while there are so many tragedies that befall children everywhere -- there's something about this case that strikes such a chord within.

I'm sure that it has to do with the fact of it being a mother who is supposed to have the innate sense to protect her child, didn't just fail miserably at doing so -- but literally preyed upon her, even if only after the fact.

I do believe in my heart of hearts this was an accidental death; I don't think she intentionally set out on killing her daughter. I think she was premeditating sedating her daughter so she could have freedom while she "on her own". (Code for "was fighting with her mother"). I have to have some semblance of hope that the young woman we've seen in all of those photographs with her little girl don’t lie. They all point to a girl who loved her daughter.

But her actions after the fact, clearly paint the portrait of a woman who's so selfish, self centered, and spoiled -- that she doesn't feel that she has to be responsible or accountable. And while I do believe that the death itself may have been accidental, her actions to me afterwards are entirely justifiable of the death penalty.

I can a person snapping and going into denial if they've accidentally hurt someone; I can even see blocking it out. Shutting down to feel no pain. But to cover and lie and manipulate. To not help but to hinder -- all points to a person who can't have regrets because there's no sense of reprucussions.

She doesn't even seem to care about being in jail; I'm sorry but if that was me and I was wrongly accused of something, I'd be pulling my hair out trying to prove my innocence. If someone "stole" my child, I'd be begging and pleading with anyone who would listen.

We all know she is the cause behind that beautiful little girl's death.
And I just pray to God that her body is found.
Caylee needs to have a proper burial, and to be finally at rest.
She deserves that.

Maybe then I'll be able to stop thinking about her....her life being snuffed away by the very person who should've protected her has haunted me. This baby who I've never met -- but yet feel as if I had -- has captured my heart.

And thankfully, I'm not the only one who feels that way.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Clothes make a statement. Costumes tell a story...

And isn't that the truth?

Kids are funny.... they come up with all these crazy costume ideas.

My son is going as "Vampire SpiderMan".

(Not to be confused with Vlad Spiderman, the elderly Romanian immigrant.)

That's right - his favorite web slinging superhero turned nocturnal blood sucker.

He's already got his Spidey costume -- so we just bought some teeth and makeup, complete with fake blood to add those perfect finishing touches.

My daughter, had initially said she was going to be a "good witch, who was nice to dogs and people but killed all the criminals in the world.". Sort of like "Glinda the Superhero Witch". How's that for imagination?

Except, that when we went to the Halloween store to get her costume and accessories -- she found the above pictured costume that is just perfect for her! Truly says it all about my little Princess Petunia.
So now, what's Mom going to be?
Well, I generally end up being "Rock Star Mom".
But maybe this year I'll be a Witch.

My friend Michelle made me a lovely witch's hat last year and you know, I'm feeling a little black cat-like these days.

And you know what I always say....
A little magic can go a long way....!

Monday, October 27, 2008

Knees up, knees up, never let the breeze up...

So, while I think it's safe to say that I didn't tear my ACL -- I think it's also safe to say that I definitely did something to my knee, and that something is not going away on it's own.

I squatted down to take a photo with my daughter last Sunday at the Walk for Autism when I heard and felt a "pop" in my knee. Right away I knew something wasn't right but I thought for sure it would've worked itself out by now. Hmmm. Not so much it seems. It hurts to straighten it - it hurts to bend it a certain way. And while there's no swelling, there's a constant ache and pain that goes to the top of my knee by my quad; sometimes if I press where it's tender, I'll also get a twinge to my Achilles. Odd, huh?

So, on Sunday I spoke to my two cousins who have both had knee issues; one of them, is the "Queen of All Things Knee". I should've thought to call her immediately. Whatever was I thinking? Well, I know what I was thinking -- I was thinking it would go away. Or that I could just run and shake it off - work through it.

I guess not.

So my cousin was nice enough to refer me to her orthopedic surgeon who's office will hopefully book me relatively quickly.

Thoughts like "meniscus tears" aren't exactly what a girl who's athletic wants to hear. But I suppose it's not unrecoverable, so...I'll just wait and see what the doctor thinks.

Funny thing is both my cousins were like "how old are you?" and when I told them they both were saying "yup, welcome to the 'Club of When You Start to Fall Apart'. You're not a kid anymore you know!"...or something like that. Which was really quite funny because seriously -- I'm not old enough!

I am still a kid!
Thirty-something is like being in your Twenties.
And I refuse to fall apart...!

Friday, October 24, 2008

"See, I'm riding my blues away...Tuesday, you see, she had to be free..."

In a strike of good news today...

I am interviewing on Tuesday.
It's been a long time since I've interviewed for a position outside of the base, so I'm quite excited.

I'm already wondering what to wear.

A recruiter I had submitted my resume to, called me today, and she was rather excited at the prospect of meeting me. It seems that with my background being both technical on a management level as well as creative -- places me in a relatively good position for a lot of the Marketing & New Media positions that she seems to have available. Another thing that has me looking forward to this is that she indicated that a few of the positions she has are within local media outlets. How excited would I be if that were the case?!?! Truthfully, I'm just happy to hear that there are positions out there and available that my background seems well suited for. I'd give my left arm to be working doing something I really enjoy.

Also hot off the presses...The time has finally come for me to donate my long, long, long hair to a charitable organization. Come Tuesday, the scissors and I have a date. It will still be relatively long, I'd never go short short.... but I'm ready to have a shorter version of what I've got now. Oh, and a little blonder too. I'm feeling rather blah these days, and so while I'll never go really blonde (I'm a Jennifer Aniston-ish kind of blonde), to have a few brighter pieces put in never hurt anyone. Always fun to have a little extra sunshine on these cold days, right?

I just wish I was going to have my new hair before my interview....!

Thursday, October 23, 2008

"We are each other’s keepers, we are the guardians of our own humanity..."

1. I am hoping beyond hope that Caylee Anthony is found and we can finally put that little girl to rest. Words can't describe the disgust I feel for her mother. I used to feel sorry for Casey Anthony's parents -- but now, not so much. I used to sympathize and empathize thinking "those poor people are in such a state of denial about their daughter..." I don't know that I necessarily believe that to be the case any longer. I think at this juncture, they've come to terms with the fact that Caylee is gone. It's abundantly clear to me that now they're in preservation mode for Casey. And that I can't empathize with.

Listen, I love my kids -- and I don't know what I'd do if they did something horribly wrong in life such as murder; but I can tell you this, if it had to do with the death of one of their children -- I would not stand by them. Not in this instance where it is clearly not accidental.

I believe in the death penalty. I wish we had it here in Massachusetts. And I hope that the evidence the State of Florida has is enough to ensure that lethal injection is the only option for this woman who never deserved to have that beautiful child in her life.

2. On a happier note...did I mention that I'm going back to NYC? And very soon. Guess who got two front row center tickets to "Speed the Plow" starring Jeremy Piven (love him!) on Broadway? Yes, that would be me. It's not secret that I'm a ticket snob -- but who would've ever imagined being able to say that I saw a Broadway play from front row? I'm so excited, I can't stand it.

3. Speaking of standing.... I think I need to see a doctor at some point. At the Walk for Autism, I bent down to take a picture by my daughter when I felt/heard a "pop" in my knee. And it's been aching non-stop ever since. I'm sure it's tendonitis or something, but since I run I want to make sure it's nothing more serious. The cold is really bothering it; heat not so much. And boy did I find that out when I put BioFreeze on it last night! Big mistake...

Well, at least I can rest easy knowing it's not an infection of my new ACL! (D'oh!)

4. Fabulous new Mexican restaurant was on the menu for lunch today... Ixtapa in Lexington was so very good! There's nothing better than relatively authentic Mexican food -- and it's so very hard to find! I'm not a big chain food restaurant kinda girl, so while this restaurant surprisingly is owned by the Aculpulco's chain, there's nothing franchise about it. And even better -- they've just opened a new one that's closer to where I live than Lexington.

5. I participated in the football pool in work today. First time in years I've worked with people who do that kind of thing. (One of the previously alluded to upsides of the job.) Who knows, I guess there's like 20 people who participate, the buy in is relatively inexpensive - and the potential is there to make about $100.

And I do believe that would buy this girl at least a new pair of boots!!

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

What I am is what I am...are you what you are, or what?

1. Is it difficult for you to look into someone's eyes when you are talking to them?
I don't know how to not look someone in the eye. That would be odd for me. I've always been a very straight forward kind of person, and you can't connect to anyone if you don't look them in the eye. I generally don't trust someone if they are shifty eyed -- though sometimes it's just a lack of confidence rather than a character issue; but that’s where a judgment call comes in. Even when I do public speaking, I make eye contact with people in the audience. I'm definitely a "warm fuzzy" kind of person when it comes to interacting with others.

2. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You get enough time to make ONE phone call. Who would you call?
Oh, why are these thought provoking questions always so dark? First, let me preface this by saying I hope I never have to think about this in real life! Depends on who I'm travelling with... if I'm alone, it's G. If not, then I guess my Mother. But I wouldn't want her to worry because me being the eternal optimist would be convinced that we can make an emergency landing somewhere. Then it would be "no harm no foul". No need to get everyone all worked up over nothing.

3. You have to choose between your significant other and your best friend, who do you choose?
Why would I ever have to choose? Should be a complete and total non-issue. I'm not 16. And even then – I’d never make that kind of a choice. That’s just silliness.

4.You are at the doctor's office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live..
(A) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die?

No. I don’t know. I’d tell everyone that is in my immediate circle…but I wouldn’t tell everyone I know because, you know – Ms. Eternal Optomist would be hoping/praying/believing that they were wrong and that I can overcome anything if I just put my mind to it. Besides, I don’t like people being fake, and I wouldn’t want someone being nice just because they felt that they “had to”. Not that I encounter many not nice people, but there are some in my “immediate vicinity” who aren’t always kind – I wouldn’t want them to suddenly “kill me with kindness” (no pun intended) because they think they need to in order to be a “good person”. Insincerity irritates me.

(B) What do you do with your remaining days?
Living. Laughing. Loving. Sounds corny, but seriously – what else matters?

(C) Would you be afraid?
Yes, a little. I wouldn’t’ want to be uncomfortable – nor would I want my kids to see me unhealthy. But I’d definitely be opportunistic. :)

5. You can have one of the following two things: trust or love?
I can't have one without the other, and I refuse to compromise. If I love you – I trust you. I don’t believe that it can truly be love if you can't trust the person. But…I think trust can exist independent of love, though. I trust people that I don’t have affection for.

6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?
First of all, I’d never be in that situation. But I’m pretending, right? Okay… I’d gladly accept the firing. If my boss that was much of a jerk to discontinue my services because I stopped to save a helpless creature – he/she is so not someone I’d want to associate with anyway.

7. If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?

Only one place, huh? Italy.

8. Think of the last person who you really knew that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give one year of your life. Is it okay for you?
In a heartbeat.

9. Are you the kind of person that you would want to have as a friend?
I am. Except for the fact that I tend to withdraw and keep to myself when I’m going through “stuff”. I’m a great listener, great helper – but don’t accept/need/want assistance from anyone when I’m struggling with something, so I prefer to keep to myself. I’ll sort of not be involved socially with things when I’m not happy with how things are going. That’s a little unfair I think… but, hey – I’m a Virgo. What can you do.

10. Does love = sex?
I think for many, the answer is no. But for just as many, the answer is yes. Some people don’t feel loved unless they’re physically intimate.
For me it’s no. I don’t need physical intimacy for someone to show me they love me.
There are many other ways for me to know that I’m loved, physically is just one way.

11. One of your best friend dies, what would you do?
Be quiet. Take it all in – and then try to help their family out as best I can.

12. When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt?
When don’t I? I’m not a game player. There is no “reading between the lines” with me.
Except in my blog occasionally….but that’s because I’m not directly addressing anyone.

13. What would be harder for you, to tell someone you love them or that you hate them?
Neither. It is what it is. I’ve never truly hated anyone….though I’ve been really pissed off to the point that I am disgusted. But truly hate? I don’t know if I have that in me.

14. What do you think would be the last thing for you to give up on?

15. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you love them?
My kids. Multiple times daily. My pets, always. My immediate family (e.g. parents, sister) – not that often actually. But as much as my Mother would say “I love you”, it wasn’t to the same extreme of frequency that I do it with my kids, so it’s not that big of a deal I don’t think.

16. If you had to go back in time and change one thing, what would you do?
I don’t know. I’m glad of where I am in life; I don’t have any regrets…if I changed even one thing – I wouldn’t be who I am today. And I like my life. Sure, there are things about it that I’m not always happy with but that’s life in general. We don’t always love our job, etc… but that’s all fluid, and can change at any time. Everything is temporary…..

17. Imagine. It is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, you hear a noise. What do you do?
Try to go to sleep anyway. Plus, I always have a dog. They’re the BEST alarm system!

18. Would you give a stranger CPR if they were dying?

19. Are you old-fashioned?
It depends on what you’re talking about. That’s really too broad of a question. In some ways I am – others not so much.

20. Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a heartbreak or to never have love?
It is better to have loved and lost Рthan never to have loved at all. Clich̩, but I believe it.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

"Redirect the substantial energy of your frustration and turn it into positive, effective, unstoppable determination.”

1. Note to the jerk on 93 South this a.m. driving the black Mercedes: I'm sorry, but did you think I was sitting in the lane just for "funsies"? Clearly there was a huge truck in front of me that was stopped as well. But thanks for beeping your horn at me -- oh, and I suppose you figured it out when you tried to pass me, only to find yourself sitting behind the truck as well. Yes, I let you in front of me so that you too could enjoy the stalemate. Idiot....

2. So, I went to bed at halftime, just to wake up this morning to hear that my two favorite players -- Sammy "I am the man" Morris and Rodney Harrison -- are hurt? I've got three words for you...WTF!

3. You know that whole -- "I'm clearly not thrilled with the new job" I hinted at last week? Hmmm. Yeah. Multiply that by 10 today. I think I've got a big rant about that coming...and soon. It's not that there aren't upsides to it -- but seriously, I'm insanely overqualified for the work I'm doing. Know of any job openings you want to pass along? Think Web Based Program Management...or Creative services. I have done everything from Art Direction & Marketing to Technical Program Management.

4. Which brings me to my business venture.....sigh. There's a really good location that's in the midst of possibly being negotiated. But in this economy, the banks are so hesitant to invest in startups. Which is frustrating.

I get the economy isn't in good shape and I understand that lots of people are hurting; but at the same time -- here I am, working my butt off at a job I don't love because that's what you do when you have a family. Does anyone really think that I work at the location that I do because it's my career choice? Of course not! I'd clearly be working elsewhere and in a field I love. But sometimes boys and girls -- you just can't do that. If you have chosen to have a family, then you put them first.

My bills are all paid on time, my credit is outstanding -- I don't live beyond my means. And yet I almost feel as if I'm being penalized for that. I'm certainly not gaining any benefit....!

I know plenty of people who choose not to work in this economy, and who are struggling to live; and yet this was a conscious decision they've made. Meanwhile, as a result of them being overcredited to the hilt, and eating up all their equity to live off of -- they're unable to help themselves when times get tough. I'm trying not to be too harsh, because I do feel for them.

But at the same home equity goes down as a result of everyone else falling into foreclosures and or succumbing to short sales. I struggle (potentially) with being approved for a business loan because others have proven to be too irresponsible with their debts. As a result, the equity I've built up can't be taken into account as fully as it should.

So tell me, what is the benefit for living life the way you're supposed to? Not having your house taken away? Seriously now -- there has got to be some reward for following the rules.

And yet, I'm really struggling to see what it might be.

Monday, October 20, 2008

All good things must come to an end...

Okay - so the Sox aren't going to the World Series. Sometimes, it's just not in the cards.
But wasn't that some of the most exciting baseball since '04 that we've been able to be a part of?

This Red Sox organization is something special.
This season is not a heartbreaker - at least not from this girl's perspective.

Was it a disappointing loss? Absolutely - and I can't imagine what that those guys are feeling, though it was abundantly clear during their post game and early a.m. arrival interviews that disappointment is probably an understatement. I don't play the game so I'll never fully understand; but as a spectator -- I have nothing but admiration, respect and pride for their efforts this season.

There has been much adversity that this team has worked through this season - and that certainly can't go overlooked.

Their camaraderie and genuine respect for one another not only shows through in their playing, but in the way they conduct themselves and speak of one another after the loss.

These guys are baseball players - not "celebrities" - despite their status in this town and across the MLB. They are all heart, soul and guts.

Though I'm sad to see the season go....I am proud, thrilled and honored to be able to witness and be a part of the history that is the Boston Red Sox.

(How many days til Spring Training..?)

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Late nights...long days....

And so goes baseball postseason.

It's been a fantastic weekend thus far. Saturday, I took the kiddies to Applecrest for their corn roast and some pumpkin picking. Despite the fact that my son was in a mood -- quite unusual for him actually -- it was a good time. My girlfriend joined us, and stayed for dinner (sushi, natch...) while we carved a pumpkin, made some roasted pumpkin seeds and a pumpkin pie.

Of course Game 6 followed shortly thereafter -- and it was nothing short of awesome to see, once of course we could actually watch it. TBS has shown that the big league games should be left to FOX. No offense TBS, but couldn't you have kicked the feed to another one of your porfolio stations, such as TNT - or whomever it is that you toggle back and forth with...? And if not -- then clearly, you need a contingency plan. Hello, risk mitigation...that's like Program/Project Managememt 101. And lest they not understand -- Game 6 is a huge project.

Similiar to the MLB and their umpire strategy. Surely there must be a recall roster so to speak regarding who's next in line should there be an injury. Though from what I understand --the delay had more to do with equipment and more than likely suiting up (?) than determining what to do.

Oh, and for all of you who stomp on my dear Captain... how do you like him now? Listen, I know that he's a situational liability at times - but must I remind you of all that he brings to the plate. He's our 9th hitter -- it's okay. If Francona would just leave him there, maybe the pressure would be off a bit and then the hitting will come back. And - might I remind you of the personal issues that's he's gone through this season. I'm sure that takes a toll - and the more he tries to not have it affect him - is probably making it affect him that much more. (No worries Jason, I've got your back!)

Today, the kids and I did the Autism Speaks Walk for Autism at Suffolk Downs. My nephew is Autistic and we had a little team together. Can I just tell you -- it was not only a madhouse there -- but flipping freezing! We had a good time though, and next time we'll try to get there a little earlier so it's not so chaotic trying to meet up with everyone. My sister made these cute Tshirts for us all to wear, but we walked from Egypt to get there (yes, we were parked that far back!) and the kids were so cold there was no way I was making them take off their coats to put it on. But they're wearing the shirts tomorrow to school anyway. My son is really proud of the fact that they helped his cousin - and best friend.

That leaves us with tonight -- Game 7.
Cautious optimism, hoping the momentum doesn't stray...

I am thrilled, excited and fortunate to be a part of the history that is the Boston Red Sox.

T-minus 35 minutes to game time....
All eyes on the ball....!

Friday, October 17, 2008

"We're going to Tampa..!!!"

This is why you don't leave the game just because they're behind at the top of the 7th.
This is why you can't throw in the towel and call it a season on your team.

Because sometimes, you have a group of guys with unbelievable heart and who refuse to give up on themselves.

You know, I have to admit I was starting to say to myself (and to those I was blogging with) "you know, this isn't exactly the way I thought this game was going to go...."

They were hitting. They were getting on base. I really thought it was just a matter of time...but would that moment come? It only takes one great play to shift the momentum and revitalize the hearts of the crowd -- and renew the energy on the bench.

And finally, in the 7th -- that long overdue hit for Big Papi came. And it was a whole new game from there.

That's what so special about this Red Sox organization. The guys on this team (for the most part) are just dirt dogs. They grind it out....and that's what wins games.

Truthfully, I got some satisfaction out of watching Tampa's bench looking...humbled.
How dare they laugh at us.

They're the new kids on the block. They're still wet behind the ears....they don't have a clue about post-season ball.

So bring on the cowbells. Keep shaving your heads, Tampa fans.
But ask yourself this: who holds the post season come back record in all of baseball history?
No amount of runs is a safe lead in post season game with this team.

They "reversed the curse".
Surely, they can sting the Rays.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Choose to make your own best opportunity from the way things are right now. With your focused commitment, truly great things are possible.

So, two weeks into the new job now.

I'm not seeing this as my final destination. It is abundantly clear to me that this position was beefed up to get me to accept it -- because it is most definitely not the job that was described to me.

Now, you might ask "Rebecca, how can you be sure? It's only two weeks into it...".
Valid point my friend. Great question.

Because there are just some things, that you know.
Let's just leave it at that for now, shall we?

There is an upside to this, however.

I get to enjoy actually taking lunch. I've been able to do that for the first time in months!! Yesterday, I had lunch with my former coworkers -- it was brief, but nice to get out. And today, I had lunch with Glitter, which we'd been trying to do for ages but never was able to do in my last office. So that was great -- she and I work close by, so hopefully we'll get to have lunch more often.

This girl needs to get a little socialization -- because there is none in the office, that's for sure.
It felt so good to get outside the last few days and just breathe.....

And on that note.... I will be on bated breath during tonight's game. It's going to be stressful, tense and frustrating.
But hey - this is the Sox postseason.
Would we really want it any other way...?

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Livin' on a prayer....

1. Last night's game was in a word -- painful. We all know baseball is cyclical -- but now isn't exactly the time that you want to be on the downside of up, you know what I mean? And while I don't want to take anything away from the Rays -- they're looking really good and playing well -- at the same time, how can they not play well against us at the moment. They're getting a beat up, patched hole version of the Red Sox. We've got injuries hindering our key players who are still in the lineup...we've got key players not playing because of their injuries....and to add insult to injury, on a night like last night when we see our pitcher falter from the first pitch -- we have no solid back up middle relief that can go the distance.

You know it's bad, when you shut the game off -- and have a dream that they lost 21 to 1; and wake up to find out that it was only 13 to 4 -- and you feel a sense of relief.

2. Someone needs to stuff a sock in Scott Boras' mouth. If he's not providing enough evidence to prove that he was the main driving force behind Manny's acting out prior to the trade deadline -- then I don't know what would be needed. I don't think the sock needs to be shoved in to keep him quiet from incriminating himself; I think it needs to be there because he is a major contribution to the monetary corruption of players in baseball. I don't care what A-Rod got; you can not compare A-Rod who doesn't pick and choose when he's going to perform to Manny. Listen, I love Manny's talents -- I love Manny when he's happy and "being Manny". But I don't love his agent clouding his clearly childish mindset and impacting the organizations around which he is involved in. It's unfair, and bad business practice. And if Scott Boras' latest touting of his superclient's salary and contract wishes don't scream "get baseball a salary cap" - - then tell me, what does?

3. Speaking of those who just speak to be heard... Ken Rosenthal’s story about racism and the Red Sox is ridiculous. Shouldn’t even be a topic of conversation, and yet it is. I'm sorry, as D&C so aptly pointed out this a.m -- back in May, he thought the Red Sox were racially balanced into a melting pot. Now, suddenly they're not? As if race plays any part in how a team builds their talent? Not only is that preposterous, I often think it takes a racist mind to call out another racist mind. Sort of like "doth protest too loudly". I don't know the man and maybe he's just trying to be thought provoking - but truly, I find it only insulting.

4. My personal thoughts on the Sox (nothing really new here from what I've spewed in the past): Ortiz will have surgery in the offseason. I thought I'd heard that a few months back, actually. Josh Beckett's injury is not an oblique; there's clearly something else going on. Varitek will sign for two years with options. I’d bet the house on that one. Hopefully they will pick up more pitchers, preferably another starter and definitely more middle relievers. The bullpen needs strengthening.

We’ve come back from deficits before, and so there’s nothing saying it can’t happen again. The Rays may get cocky, and sloppy. Our bats may suddenly come to life – we know how that can go. But at the same time, there’s a real possibility that we won’t win tomorrow night and the season for the Nation may be over.

I’m not ready to give up hope just yet though.
Are you?

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Musical Monday....

As I was browsing through YouTube last night, I thought it would be fun for me to post some of my all time favorite songs. Considering we all know that I have many all time favorites - I thought I'd share some of my not so mainstream ones, or maybe older classics. Some may surprise you, others not so much. Check them out, and let me know which ones you like!

Today's songs are on the folk/jazz side - and don't even begin to scratch the surface of favorites, truth be told.

What are some of your favorites?

Sunday, October 12, 2008

I'm in a New York state of mind.....

(And since the Yankees aren't in the post-season, it's okay for me to feel this way.)

So, I just experienced my first trip to New York City -- and I love, love, loved it.
As much as I enjoy the quiet of the country, I also enjoy the bustle of the city.
Had I moved there as I had wanted to many years ago, I would've truly enjoyed being there.
And I can't wait to go back.

Thoughts of the trip....

1. I love flying. It's a sin that September 11th put a damper on it for me. Now, I'm certainly much more cognizant of who my flying companions are - and I've got to be honest, I don't relax nearly as much as I used to. Of course being a Mom makes my mortality that much more of a heightened awareness, but generally speaking it's a different experience for me now. I do love every thing about flying too. Take off and landings are the best. I'm also one of those crazy types that doesn't mind turbulence, and I enjoy being able to listen to Air Traffic Control. Of course on a 30 minute hop to NYC that doesn't get to happen -- but Bloody Mary's in first class do! That nice little upgrade for $50 didn't hurt any, that's for sure.

Plus, I am a people watcher and there's few better places to take advantage of that than at an airport. You see happy people greeting family and friends; sad people saying goodbyes. So many stories.

2. Speaking of people watching....does it get much better than in Manhattan and Times Square? Wow. It was, nothing short of awesome. If I lived there, and had nothing planned for the day I'd get a good cup of coffee and a seat on one of the benches and just watch everyone go by. There's always something to do; something to see. I love LA - and to me, this was like being able to go to LA without having to take the long flight. Granted, there are stark differences between the two, I'm not comparing the two cities -- but the overall experiences are similar. And this, is just a car ride away! I am in awe that I've never been before. For the record, I didn't find New Yorkers any ruder than we are; actually, most people were really quite friendly.

Funny story... we were walking down 8th street, and there was a flea market of sorts that went down about 7 blocks maybe? And it's filled with vendors selling their wares, mostly knockoff purses and the like - but some decent things too. Very hit or miss. Anyway...most of these vendors are of an ethnic descent that is not Caucasian/American. There was just about every flavor under the sign of ethnicity - which made the street dining experience phenomenal, by the way (mmmm, falafel wraps and fried plantains! But I digress....) -- and marching down the street causing a ruckus are some very white bread Americana types shouting "Christians for McCain!" "Take back our country!" "Vote for McCain, it's the Christian thing to do". Of course, people were yelling back not so nice things at them. And I couldn't help but think: here are people who bust their butts setting up shop to sell their wares for dirt cheap just to make a buck -- this isn't the demographic you should be marching in the middle of to persuade them to vote Republican, dumbasses. Just a thought....

3. Walking is the way to go! We walked everywhere....from our hotel on W52d to Greenwich Village which we unfortunately didn't get to spend time at because we had to get to the airport. We were trying to get to Ground Zero actually, before our flight - but we weren't able to get that far in just an hour. But we walked around all day yesterday, and a good part of this morning. Probably in total, 8 miles between yesterday and today -- which is great for burning off all that food we ate! And for the record, every place we stopped to eat was very good. Including the above mentioned street vendors! Truly, we didn't eat a lot - but our dinner choice was the Oyster Bar at W54th and it was surprisingly good. It was tough to bypass Shula's, but when you're in the mood for seafood - Shula's just isn't going to cut it....

4. We weren't overly impressed with the Sheraton Manahattan in Times Square. $564.00 for a a room that was not in the best condition, and not even free internet?!?! Seriously, though I've never been to NYC previously, I set up rooms for G for far less money that were far nicer than we were last night. And, they were in the heart of Times Square as well - so that's not an excuse. But I think it was an availability thing -- short notice trip during a long weekend and all. It was a bit high priced for it's purpose and offerings. So next time -- and there will be a next time in the very immediate future -- we will stay someplace different.

5. They say the neon lights are bright on Broadway.... As we all know, I started out in life wanting to be an actress; and if you didn't already know - I was a theatrical actress "back in the day". To actually have been on Broadway, the place that I dreamed about as a kid - possibly seeing my name in lights -- was nothing short of fantastic. It was awesome, full of life and just so very cool.

6. We saw a very cute play, "A Boy's Life" at 2econd Stage Theatre. It starred quite a few well known television actors and one relatively well known movie actor, Jason Biggs. I saw him in "The Graduate" with Kathleen Turner, actually. It was cute - and the theatre is wonderfully intimate. Off Broadway plays are fantastic because they're theatrical presentations rather than musicals. Fun little note - there were some familiar faces in the audience watching the show, including Judith Light, best known as "Karen" on "One Life to Live" - and of course, "Angela" on "Who's the Boss". She was two rows ahead of us.

There's so much more I could say, but I think this is enough for now. Next time, I think we'll stay in Manhattan again, but travel around a bit more...hit the Upper East Side a bit, visit Ground Zero....trek to Mulberry Street. Maybe a fancy, schmancy hair cut at a fantastic uber glamourous salon -- and of course, another play.

I don't know how I hadn't done this sooner.....!
How's that for a fabulous anniversary gift?

(Red Sox postscript: Very odd to be in NYC and see all Yankees gear; we saw NO Red Sox memorabilia anywhere, on anyone. It's probably the first time I've ever travelled to a location and not seen at least one Sox shirt. And I've been all over the country. That was really weird to notice.

And what the heck is up with Beckett?!?!)

Friday, October 10, 2008

Start spreadin' the news....

I'm not leaving today...but I am tomorrow!

Off to New York City -- Manhattan, to be specific. For the first time!
This girl couldn't be any more excited....

A little shopping....a little sightseeing....a little theatre...and how's about watching the Sox game in the Yankee's backyard?

More details to follow....

Thursday, October 09, 2008

You can't always get what you want....

So, I guess I'm not going to be one of the finalists for WEEI's Next Sports Blogger contest that they have been running.

I haven't heard anything from them, and from what I've seen on the internet from a few people who have -- they've been notified. I know tomorrow's the deadline but I suppose I'd have heard by now.
Well, you win some - you lose some, right?

Truthfully in retrospect - my first submission was probably vague and rather cutesy. I did say that I prefer to have specific topics to write about rather than about the sports scene just because that was a rather vague topic; there's so much that falls into that category, how do you capture it all. But there are some amazingly savvy sports folks out there who blog, so my general posts probably weren't enough to keep the judges interested. It is... what it is.

Which brings me to my thoughts for today... and once again they are about Manny.

I'm constantly amazed at how people are shocked that behaviours that supposedly aren't allowed or are frowned upon are compromised in his case.
The Dodgers are now just as responsible for "Manny being Manny" there -- as the Red Sox were when he was here.
He is their goose that lays the golden eggs -- and with that, comes privileges. Benefits and allowances that the ordinary person or member of an organization aren't privy to. And wake up kids - it's like that everywhere. There are "special circumstance" employees in every workplace, why would baseball be any different?

He is paid an insane amount of money to be a racehorse. He is a diva because he can be. It is allowed for him to be as such, and because it's always been that way - he will always continue to behave the way he does, because if someone threatens to tighten the reins on him, there is a fear of repercussion.

He is the ultimate spoiled child. Think of him as a 10 year old that always got his way; got every toy he ever wanted without having to wait for birthdays or Santa Claus - and never had any rules placed upon him. No bed times, no meal times, just life on his own terms. Then suddenly, at 10 - the parents decide that now is the time to conform to rules. What do you expect a person to react to that? What does any spoiled child do when their parents try to restrain them? They rebel. And act out. Who do you blame for that? Certainly not the's the parent's responsibility to lay down the law. Parenting is a tough job but someone's got to do it.

The same rules apply in life. There are boundaries and expectations of all of us no matter what career field we are in. There are acceptable and unacceptable behaviours.

Listen up MLB; Manny is your toy..... you wound him up -- now you play with him.
Is it his fault that rules apply differently to him than to anyone else?

I blame the teams, the managements and ownerships for being inconsistent.
Accept Manny for what you made him. Because he will never be anything different....

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

Sitting in the morning sun....I'll be sitting when the evening comes....

1. Note to the reporters that have been out there on national television crying about the Angels loss to the Sox: Seriously, enough whining already about the Red Sox. The better team won - period, end of discussion. Man up, shut up - and sit down.

First of all, you can't take anything away from either team -- they both played hard. But let's be honest -- the Angels defense made some crazy errors. And while I held my breath during the middle of their lineup because they were so good, "were" is the proper tense. Because they weren't that good during this series. Baseball is cyclical - and at that time, during the post season - the Angels didn't prove to be as good as they were during the season. Not to say that they weren't tough - this was not an easy series by any stretch -- but it wasn't as bad as some may have thought it was going to be.

Final thought on this series can't challenge Jason's out at third! He tagged him before dropping the ball. There was no fumble here. He tagged him, before the ball came out of the glove. Get over it and move on....

2. Time to think about Tampa.... the rotation came out today, and truthfully I'm surprised to see Beckett pitching the second game. I think I was thinking he'd pitch third at Fenway - but maybe since he pitches so well at Tropicana (not that he doesn't pitch well everywhere, but his record is really great there!). Truthfully I only figured they'd pitch him at home to give him another day of rest, but what was it I said yesterday? In Francona we trust....

3. The debates were anything but a debate. Come on - let them get down and dirty and mix it up! The only thing that last night resolved for me was the overwhelming realization that Obama is going to win this election. He is just so slick. And McCain comes across as rather, grumpy. I like them both but the truth of the matter is that I don't know which one to believe when they're speaking. They're both talking so much schtick with no real substance -- I couldn’t' even finish watching it. Neither one excited me, neither one motivated me -- and neither one clarified anything for me. In a word: aaagh.

4. How about a little "aaah".... so glad to find out that my new insurance policy, which will more than likely be uber expensive -- covers acupuncture. Not fully, but any little bit helps! The fluorescent lights here are killing me, and truthfully I'm so overdue to go back. These headaches though nearly not like they were before, are slowly and surely creeping back into my life. Between yoga and acupuncture, I need to get myself feeling spectacular again. Running + Yoga + Acupuncture = Bliss. '

Must. Find. Center.

5. I can taste again!!! Today, my friend Michelle and I met for sushi today. She also gave her notice and so we had a little celebratory/congratulatory luncheon at our favorite little sushi hideaway. It's perfect because you can be in and out within a half hour. And the sushi was fantastic. We had a new creation today -- and I think it's our new favorite. She and I have very similar sushi tastes, so move over Spicy Maki because Crazy Roll is the new gig in town...!

Tuesday, October 07, 2008

The Magic that is Soxtober....

So, the sleep deprivation felt okay today because it was with a happy ending.
But wow - was that a nailbiter.

I was fuming in the middle of the 8th when I saw Masterson come in. I get that Papelbon had been used alot and Francona was more than likely planning on using him in Game 5 if need be; but I'm sorry - by doing that, they almost gave that game away. Actually, they had given it away, if not for my boy Jason making a great play for an out to get the ball rolling for the win. Bay, Lowrie - it was a deeply dug team effort. (Ask me how many times I've watched the replay of that out at third. Sigh...)

In Francona we trust.... ?

At the same time, man - wasn't it exciting/interesting/fun game to watch? It's much more enjoyable watching a challenging, nervewracking game that means something, than seeing the team just steamroll through a series. This is what the post season is all about -- the guts, the heart, the soul and determination of what means most to these guys.

The Angels made a ton of defensive mistakes which surprised me; and I know that alot of people are saying today that Lester dominated, but truthfully John Lackey pitched an unbelievable game as well. Yes, we've all heard the comments made by Lackey after the game, and while the words are classless -- they're raw, and passionate and in the heat of the moment. He should be angry - his outfield made some errors that lost them opportunities. But hey, that's part of the game.

Man up Lackey.
You win lose some.

And thankfully for us -- we live to win some more.

Monday, October 06, 2008


"Turn and face the strange...."

Today is my first day in the new office.
I'm cautiously optimistic. The people are nice -- there are only about 15 people in this office for the next month or so -- then we're moving to another building. And I'm the only girl - which is sort of funny. But, I am in the Web Apps department so truly - not a big surprise. Not to say that there aren't girls in this field, as it is I'm replacing a woman who held this position previously; but I think the ratio is far higher leaning towards men. Outside of the brief introductions this morning, everyone has pretty much left me to myself - which is perfectly fine.

The company as well, seems to be very "do your own thing" type of mentality which is a good thing. They respect me as a professional, and treat me as such -- what more can a girl ask for? The company and the office seem very happy to have me here, and so how can I not enjoy the day thus far.

You know, it just didn't feel like it was in the cards for the Sox last night. I fell asleep at the beginning of the 11th, and unfortunately wasn't shocked to wake up and hear that they weren't able to make the sweep. It happens. Beckett was off the mark right from the start - not to say that the umpire's strike zone wasn't all over the map until the 6th inning it seemed -- but you could tell he was "off". And while taking nothing away from the Angels - they really ground out the win -- it just didn't feel like last night was "the night". I am hoping beyond hope that tonight starts off well because seriously, game 5 in CA is not where we want to see this series go.

The Patriots game was scary as well, into the 2d quarter. But fortunately by the time the 3rd quarter came around they seemed a bit more cohesive - and while that's always easier to do when you have a lead, it made it easier to watch the game. Matt Cassel looked better -- the offensive line looked better - but this quarterback of ours still has some growing to do.

Sammy Morris is my new favorite player I think, by the way. Just a little food for thought.

So, for today - life is better. I'm still sick - but feeling better. The new job is so far so good -- if I can get them to take this fluorescent light out from over my head that would be perfect!

We've got an unbelievably high pressure game to watch tonight that I cannot wait to see -- and I'm thinking that Lester is going to come up big tonight against Lackey.

So all in all, the thought for today is: Change is good.

"Oh look out, you rock n rollers..."

Saturday, October 04, 2008

How's about those Sox!!!!

How psyched is the Nation right now??!!

I know I said I didn't want to see the Sox play the Angels. I meant it. I didn't think we couldn't win - I just thought it would be a series that would run down to the wire. We all know that there's a possibility that it might....but it sure feels good knowing that game three is at Fenway with Beckett on the mound.

Now, at risk of sounding cynical -- last night has a couple of questions for me to pose:

1. Am I the only one who gets frustrated beyond imagination watching DiceK pitch? It just seems like he wastes so many pitches. Just asking...

2. Okay. So, after last night's unbelievable 2 run HR I'm feeling as if I need to eat my words about how JD Drew is a diva, and doesn't seem willing to put in an effort to help the team when he's not horribly injured, yada yada yada. Now he's a hero, right? me crazy but in some ways seeing him hit that and bring something great to the table almost irritates me more. There are some really injured guys on this team who bring it every game - and who really don't like being forced to sit out (ala Mike Lowell, for an example). Imagine just how much Drew could've contributed to the team's success over the past few months.

Drew's efforts last night sort of made me see that I can draw a parallel between him and other "really great ball players who often opted not to work through their injuries, and who shall remain nameless" -- and I am wondering if anyone else feels the same way?

Friday, October 03, 2008

Anywhich way but....decided

Okay, since we're well into the start of the baseball game and I haven't had the chance to see it yet (it's DVR'd, I'll be playing catchup after this is posted) I figured I'd write my long overdue post for today. We'll talk ball tomorrow -- tonight it's going to be politics.

So last night's debate was, nice.
Nice??? Who would think that would be the term used and yet there you have it.

Sarah Palin came out looking a little overly made up but lovely none the less. Joe Biden looked handsome; and they both were very complimentary and benevolent towards one another. I have to say that surprised me to a certain extent.

I expected Sarah Palin to be harsher than she came across; there's definitely a warmth and gentleness despite the firmness of the words that a woman brings to the table. She came across as genuine for the most part and I liked that, although there were a few answers that I thought she was a bit cutesy and contrived.

Joe Biden came across very well also and to me - he was by far the stronger VP candidate. He spoke more specifically on topics, answered the questions and stayed on point. Sarah Palin had a tendancy to not answer the questions or give specifics. She sort of spewed the "change" word in the same vague manner that Barack Obama does and that really irritates me. Tell me what you're changing; don't just use the term. Give me examples, outline some ideas -- tell me what you're going to do. Change isn't a tagline. Show me the money.....and she didn't do that.

One of the things I found interesting about Joe Biden last night was that there were moments were you could tell that he either liked the way his adversary verbally sparred her responses or was just very surprised by the fact that she kept up with him. It was an admiration, I think - or at least it seemed that way. It may be that my expectation was that he would've been more aggressive, but he certainly didn't need to be.

During the Democratic debates for Presidential nomination I had preferred Joe Biden; I liked him last night as well. Yet I'm not a huge Barack Obama fan. I like John McCain, but I'm not a huge fan of Sarah Palin.

So how's about a McCain/Biden ticket?
We all say we want to lose partisan lines.... so why not try something new and actually do it?

Pardon my naivete, but I am no expert on politics. Is there a law that states that candidates from one party can't actually choose one from another to run with them?
Just asking the question....

Thursday, October 02, 2008

Set that monkey free.....

In 15 short minutes, I will be walking out of the organization I've supported for the last 8 years.
It's bittersweet, as I'm sad to leave the group -- but thank Christ I'm leaving that bitch of a company. (No offense if you're a religious type, but they suck. There's just no gentle way of saying it.)

I'm free at last...

The only upside to my leaving the group is that the horrible sour ass stench that we're forced to breathe and practically eat on a daily basis is now...gone. Hopefully, the new building has a better HVAC situation because seriously I think they're trying to kill us with that!

And I'm going to celebrate by having a deep tissue massage to help wash away all the stress and tension that they've caused over the past 7 months. And hopefully, it will help eliminate some of this damn sinus tension I've got going on. It's brutal!

And now - onto the good stuff....

How's about those Sox?!!?
I can't even begin to express how phenomenal that game was. The psychological edge that it provides by the opening win. I could go on and on, but truthfully - I'm going to wait and savor a better post for tomorrow.

It'll be a VP Debate and Baseball Analysis.
Sound like a plan?
Because this girl....

outta here!

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

Your heart is true, you're a pal and a confidant...

I am quite the lucky girl.

While tomorrow is my last official day in the office, and a half one at that -- myself and two of my friends from work made lunch plans for today. And of course, they involved sushi - so even though I'm still really very sick, and have no taste - a little wasabi can't hurt anyone, right? So, the three of us went for a little "farewell" get together. Although it won't truly be farewell...

I've never really had many friends at work. Now when I say friends, I mean people I'd have as a part of my personal life as a friend, rather than a person with the "work friend" moniker. You know, just, a regular friend. But I've been very fortunate over the past few years to have made three real friends, that I'm not only happy to know - but really very proud of. They're all very capable, strong women and they all have very unique qualities that I admire, and who I hope pursue their strengths to their fullest ability - both personally and professionally.

So, while my decision to leave my office and take this other position is bittersweet because I'd been there for so long and enjoy what I do; it's also difficult because when you do find people that you really connect with and spend so many hours a day with - it's hard to give that social aspect up as well.


Tonight is the big, big, big Game 1 vs. the Angels. As I mentioned yesterday I'm sick (blech) and I'm hoping to catch at a minimum two innings. If I wasn't sick, I'd be all set with staying up until 2am, but that would certainly be a first class ticket to pneumonia I'm sure, so I think I'll have to stick to the DVR catchup in the a.m. while getting ready.