Things come in 3's....

I think I need to mark the calendar as today being a day of change. But just not sure that it will be change for the best…

1. Today there is a teleconference with my company and the prime contractor here about what is being done to me. I’m nervous and edgey about it because not only do I not like what’s happening -- it’s just not a good feeling to know that there is someone having to go to bat for you over something. It’s great to know that someone is willing to do that for you – but it’s an awful feeling when it’s unnecessary. As I was told this morning, it just seems that they’re trying to make me so uncomfortable that I’ll just quit. And while I know what they’re doing is harassment, I just hope there’s no backlash from the conversation that’s held today.

2. My sitter this morning showed up, and announced that she has a doctors appointment this morning because she’s bleeding. Okay, for those of you who are guys and get squeamish about this, well – you may want to skip this paragraph. The only thing I can think of that would cause bleeding at this juncture would be either placenta previa or placenta abruptio. Either way – she’ll be on bedrest. Which given the current scenario I’m in with my psycho company – can’t really go well. Now, at risk of sounding selfish – because truly, I don’t want her to be uncomfortable by any stretch, or have the baby at risk – but this is going to really screw me. Oh, and did I mention that today is my son’s first day of soccer camp, and if she’s not back by 1pm, I’ll have to pick him up from camp and potentially get my daughter from her in Manchester NH. I’m fortunate that in 7 years, I’ve only run into baby sitter emergencies once or twice, but truly – these are the times that it really irritates me that I don’t have grandparents to help out.

3. Tonight is the public meeting regarding a liquor license that we’ve been trying to acquire – that is trying to be transferred to a gas station. If tonight’s meeting goes well then the transfer will be declined and we will have the opportunity (hopefully) to put in an application for the license. In which case, I can deal with whatever crap the psycho company gives me. If it doesn’t, then…..it’s back to the drawing board once again.

Everything happens for a reason. I know this…and I’m thinking it over and over. And truthfully, there are far worse situations I could be in at the moment. It’s just that I’m a very structured and controlled kind of person and I sort of feel that everything is in a state of flux and I can’t really control which path I need to or am able to go down. If just one of the above named scenarios gets a resolution today, it will help.

Right about now, I welcome any and all uplifting thoughts…